Point Blank

I haven really been sleeping very well for the past few nights, perhaps I have been sleeping too much during the day, and thus the night seemed alittle too long. Having too little time for myself, I would complain, having too much time to myself, make me think too much. Far too much.

Last night, I was in bed at, 2am, but I guessed I only fell asleep at 4am. I had been tossing and turning all night, and my head aint at all tired, the entire night, I have been thinking. Thinking of stuffs, like, what should I bring over to Aus, what are we going to do there, what am I suppose to do after when I get back, what lies in my future, where m i proceeding from here, is my wait worthwhile... So much more... it is getting scary the more u think, it is like a living nightmare.

I then realised, after all these nights, that I am actually a person who needs attention. I need companionship and more. I aint such a simple person after all. I aint a person of much a determination, i aint a person who is totally hardworking. I think I am more of a bummer, too much to bum around. Sigh...

I guess, tonight is going to be one such night again. O well, whatever that is, I will rush home to watch Portugal vs Mexico!! o yea!! tmr then i start packing... it is just a 1 week trip anyway, short trip, dont need so much to pack... O shites.... tonite... the guys are goin Zouk, mambo night... should I go??!! awwwwwwwww i am missing the retro hits!!! but ... sigh... i dunno....

O yes...I am getting pissed at people who are on MSN... they speak to u... yet without a word, they left the sentence hanging n off they go to dunno where... Pluto maybe, then leave u stuck there.... dunno what the hell is he/she talking about... what is wrong with all these people!!! Say hi...then after that...when u reply...the person like dunno in which land already... sian...

anyway, the weather is so good todae!! i think i am bakin myself at my window here man, nua-ing at the couch!! sigh... should have gone to the beach for a good tan!! hahahaha CRISPY skin!! hahahahahah honey baked!! o yea!!! well.... but ...who cares... i will just go out later... have a good meal with friends ... hangout ...then decide whether to gym....ahhahahaha

well.... nowadays... i will just chill out with friends... what is the point of a good looking bod? (not tt i have one...)...but....that is sian... high maintainance... anyway... there is not much of a point to look good...dress good and feel... great... they are all ...just .... something comforting...
boring.... sigh....