life+happiness+sadness = the infinite definition of life

Nothing Good About Goodbye

2007-01-18T03:41:00.000-08:00

Recently, I fell in love with this song...

Artist: Hinder
Title: Nothing Good About Goodbye

I rolled up my sleeves today
Cause I thought that this was over
But then you called to say
You forgot that broach of your mothers
And everytime I try to cut the cord
You come crawlin' back with some excuse
You forgot something
There's nothing good about goodbye
I could swear I saw you cry
I always knew you'd wind up fallin' harder
There's nothing good about goodbye
Just say goodbye
I rolled up my sleeves today
Cause I thought that this had ended
But then you called again
To tell me how you're gonna blow my best friend
And every time I try to cut the cord
You come crawlin' back with some excuse
You forgot something
There's nothing good about goodbye
I can swear I saw you cry
I always knew you'd wind up fallin'
Fallin' harder
Every story has two sides
In the he said she said fight
Always knew you'd wind up fallin'
Fallin' harder
Theres nothing good about goodbye
Just say goodbye
Fallin', fallin' out of
You're fallin' apart
Fallin', fallin' out of
You're fallin' apart
Fallin', fallin' out of
You're fallin' apart
Fallin', fallin' out of
You're fallin' apart
There's nothing good about goodbye
I can swear I saw you cry
I always knew you'd end up fallin'
Fallin' out of
Every story has two sides
In the he said she said fight
She'll always wind up fallin'
Fallin' out of

Cheaper By a Dozen

2006-08-28T20:43:00.000-07:00

Date: 29th August 2006
Time: 1142am

It has been awhile since i last blogged here, almost neglecting it too much...
Anyway, lets see... just watched "Cheaper by a dozen" on DVD, and surprisingly, it is a pretty interesting movie... From this movie, i have learnt a few points.

1) It is fun to have more kids, but need a little crowd control there!! (hahaha..)
2) You have to give and take, to make everyone happy
3) You will need to give up alot of potential offers, just to keep the family intact
4) Think of everyone 1st before yourself
5) Career maybe important, but, family and love ones are more important
6) Love ones are worth every single living second of your life
7) Smile and be happy
8) Being too close to someone, can means, heartache when you are not with the person for awhile
9) Nice, understanding family, is the best anyone can have
10) CHRISTMAS STILL MAKES ME SOFT!!!

hahahaha....
well that is the movie....

lets see.. what else... o yar ... snake on the plane is not bad a movie too!! Samuel L Jackson is still a very good actor!! hahahahah... make the entire movie... not bad!! hahah think, for anyone else, i doubt they can carry off that role, without the viewers thinking that the movie suck!! hahaha

what else... hmmm gym is gym... been coverin lotsa classes... which is good... means $$$ coming in! hahahaha but of coz they will all be gone in no time!! lastest by this week!!! hahahahah... well need them to buy some stuffs...

Wait a sec, what is the purpose of this blog??? hmmm???? i have no idea....

OUT....

I NEED A JOB

2006-08-14T22:02:00.000-07:00

i need a job!!!

Job criteria
1) 9 to 530pm
2) pays well, bout 1.9k or 2k
3) no need to work over the weekends
4) dressed up only when needed
5) in town
6) good boss
7) able to move around or travel
8) not totally desk bounded
9) no sales
10) better still, if they give allowance if they require me to dress up

Sigh... can i just ... teach part time?? that is all??? i cant survive man!!!

QuizzzzEzzzz

2006-08-13T20:55:00.000-07:00

Once again... this is really a boring day... so that is why.... MORE QUIZZES and tests!!! ahhahaha And this time... one from each category...

Entertainment

Who's Your Celebrity Soul Mate?

Jacelyn, your celebrity soul mate is someone who's Indie

You're probably not one to take the path most traveled. In fact, an independent spirit like you would much rather carve out your own special niche. So it's only natural that your romantic match would be required to do the same.Someone who's unique, intelligent, maybe a bit serious and brooding is right for the part. An indie actor like Johnny Depp seems best suited for that role. And it only makes sense that you'd rather have your rendezvous at places that are under the radar — just like you! So, keep making your own waves in the world. The awards and accolades are sure to follow for you and your celeb soul mate! And even if you don't live in the same reality as your celebrity soul mate, you can still meet someone who's indie close to home. So get moving!

Lifestyle

What's Your Perfect Car?

Jacelyn, you're a SUV!
The car for you is none other than an off-road, four-wheel-driving SUV. A Toyota Landcruiser, Nissan Pathfinder, or Jeep Cherokee—take your pick. How about something in a forest green or steel blue? Maybe you're fronting as a serious professional, but deep down you're a weekend warrior at heart. Whether it's a fishing trip deep in the wilderness, or just a quick road trip to some quaint little town—your spontaneous side needs to know that you can go anywhere at a moment's notice. Even if you're too busy with work and family obligations to head to the mountains every weekend, that spirit of outdoor adventure lives inside you. You're game for any kind of fun when the opportunity arrives. That's what those stylish roof racks are for. Boarding, surfing, or biking, you're a gear fanatic who needs the right stuff for the sport at hand, and your SUV is the crown jewel of your adventurous lifestyle.

Style and Fashion

How Hip Are You?

Jacelyn, you're hip with the image makers

Wherever you are, that's where it's at — the party, the people, the scene. You like being the center of attention and always seem to be the first in your group to set the style. This means you're always on the lookout for the next big thing, and you're not afraid to take a few risks or even make a few mistakes to get there before the pack.We're betting you're a leader in most things you do, whether it's athletics, academics, fashion, or fun. And this drive, coupled with a magnetic personality, means that people naturally gravitate toward you — and probably try to follow your lead. But they'd better be ready to hustle, you'll soon be moving on to something new!

Careers

How Would You Spend Your Last Dollar?

Jacelyn, you should splurge on A Shopping Trip

Bags and shoes and jeans, oh my! Whether you adore your duds designer or down-to-earth, you're a seasoned shopper who always goes after what you want. From the thrill of the hunt to the victory of the find, you know that there's nothing like a little retail therapy to brighten your day.You're a big believer in living in the moment, and you're not one to deny yourself life's little treats. Sure, you know when to take things seriously, but you always manage to have fun along the way. A free spirit with an optimistic streak, you're the first person friends call when they need a laugh or a pick-me-up. Stay stylish!

Relationships

The Passion Predictor

Jacelyn, you're a Synchronized Swimmer!

What could be more comforting than moving in lockstep with your partner? Living in a permanent state of "we" warms the cockles of the heart. In the words of Joe Cocker's immortal ballad, "Love lifts you up where you belong." It makes you feel alive and brings joy to your lover, too. When you and your honey are on cloud nine, life couldn't be sweeter. The rewards of caring so much pay off again and again.But, there is a rub here: Do you get little anxious when your sweetie is out of your sight? If you don't get a call when you're supposed to, do you worry that perhaps something's wrong?If you're feeling unappreciated or taken for granted, your insecurities can make you a little needy. Sure, you've got a lot of love to give. But is it possible that you have a tendency to lose yourself in relationships? The best pairings always happen when two whole people come together as equals. So take care of yourself first before you worry about your partner

Crap... there are 4 more to go... but i am bored~!!!
nevermind... will do them when i am bored again!! ahhahahahah....

Girls Day Out!!

2006-08-03T10:26:00.000-07:00

Date: 03rd Aug 06
Time: 11.30pm

LOVE TODAE!!!
totally!!! girls day out!! it has been long!! so so long since i last been under the sun!! and enjoying it!!! And yes, with my lovely girl pal Dimas. Well, thot it will be like pouring, coz, it was drizzling on my way there... but when we reached??? till we left...the sun was NEVER ONCE outa sight..well ok ok ...except for occasional clouds here and there!! but the sun was like... o yea... like we were in EGYPT!!! or was it ... Africa??? ahhahahahah

whatever that is... we still get to be ...crispy honey baked!! WE ARE GOOOOD!! COOOL and ROCKIN!!!! shites... i gota on my ar con tonite!!! i finished up all the ice in the freezer!!! EVERYTHINGGGGG!!! up to now!! i am still emittting heat!!!! geeesh!!!

Picture: on our way to Bugis... in the train!! well... me using my new mobile!! testing out the camera... and of coz... what else... We are vain pots!! hahahah but nice picture!!! i like!!! hahaha

And after that, m suppose to meet the guys for dinner, but ... neh they are bz with meeting up with clients and meetins...so cancelled dinner ... so went dinner with Dimas (after ther Latino Jam)... we went Siam Kitchen. my 1st time there... and therefore... since we are all hungry!! and it is of an ok value... we had... BUFFET ahhahaahahhaha and that is wide spread!!!!!

Well... nice to be talking to her.... while tanning we talked bout everythign!!! and i mean everythign.... it is such a nice thing to do... it has been long since i last had a good talk with a girl... a long talk.... o yar...she is heading over to US over dec... foe 1 month!!! JEALOUSSSS !!! winter time!!! AWWWWWWWWW WHITE CHRISTMAS!! i wana go!!! i wan go so many place!! !!!!!! hahahah but ...o well...never mind... i still love UK!!! hahahahaha

babe!!! dont forget our sept date??!!! yar???!!! *wink*

To die for...

2006-07-30T22:13:00.000-07:00

Time: 1.39pm
Date: 31st July 2006

Chk this out!!!
My new fav!!!
TO DIE FORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR~~~~~
Something I would never expect from LG actually... ahahahah...

Now, o yar, caught "Dragon Tiger Gate" on sat, with a whole gang of good friends. I just ooomph.... love Donnie Yen already. He is way cool, and yes, as qouted from FIRST mag. I was at AWE... he is just too breathe-taking. No exactly good looking or anything hunky. But he has a certain X-Factor in him that, is able to capture my attention. WOOOOT~~~~

The after, sun, with a gooodie sister and my darling love. "The Lakehouse". It aint a total total weak in the knees love story, but seeing 2 beautiful people on the big screen, is great enuf. And to top it off, that LAKEHOUSE is a total beauty. Well, I am a sucker for such stuffs anyway, beautiful artifact, total chic structure, very romantic place. So not me!!! But it is just tooo beautiful to take my eyes off, that house and of coz, that clean face, keanu Reeves.

For once, I think he is cute hahahahaah!! yes yes!! i am so gone over the weekend. 1st we have the martial arty, quick hands and lighting feet Donnie-Ripping-lean-muscles-Yen. ( you can check him out here : http://www.donnieyen.com/) .Then came, that all-so-sensative-and kissable-lips-and-to-die-for-eyes Keanu Reeves!! O mis gosh!!!!! they are both dudes from the polar opposite... but ... they both are captivating...

And guess what, that is what my love is made up of. That is why, probably i like the both stars.
Let me break down what i mean by... " that is what my love is maade up of". He has Donnie Yen martial arty feel. He has that kinda eyes that Donnie has. Deep in thought look. Serious look. No nonsense look.

He has the softness of Keanu Reeves. Those lips is enough to kill. Those charm that one is oozing too much of. Is all that i need, to drown myself in love. Blinded as can be, I really rather die then to be alone, ever again.

New stuffs

2006-07-13T08:19:00.000-07:00

Time: 11.21pm
Date: 13th July 2006

@ Anderson's Icee Cream. Marina Square. OOOOPSSSS!!! Sorry, I thought you are the dessert on my plate.... MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

GUESS what is in the BOX??!!!! ahhhhhhhhhh went into the shop. Try on, Nice? Hmmm good. Ok, BUY!!!! that is ... my bad boy...

Ahhhhh... VIOLA!!!!! They come in 2 different colour laces. One on black and the other?!! Hot pink!!! WOOOOOT!!! Lovely!!! Thank you baby!!!

I like this pair of shoes... but i am also still thinking of that nike shoe.... DARN!!! how many pairs of shoes must I have??? hmmm and also... i need a new pair of heeels!!! Office clothes!!! URGH!!!! this is killing me!!!

Fifa World Cup 2006

2006-07-10T21:59:00.001-07:00

OK, now that the World Cup is over, many people are being sent into the "Post- World- Cup- Withdrawal Symptom". As for me, this world cup just showed me how ugly the game can be, or how gentlemanly players are, but still at the end of the day, it just show how "sportsmanly" can a player be.

You get too see all the potiential Hollywood actors in action, leg hugging, face grabbing or divers getting ready to dive into the grass pitch. Or even "nipple-grabber". Such a sadist, yuck, it just made me sick. There are only a few teams, or players who play true blue soccer, they are the classics and are not affected by the "Acting Dieases" yet. These actors-wanabe has turned this game into their acting ground, hogging headlines and whatever attention they need to get.

And also, in this game, you are able to tell, who are the brainers who knows how to make the full use of their players potentials to lead their team into the next round, and the next, and the next. But you can also see those, who, really sit there and just , let their players die in the battlefield, with his lousy and out of the world tactics.

This is also the time, where all managers of soccer teams, DISPLAY their players, esp those who are fabulous players in their teams before World Cup. It is also the time, where the players are trying to SELL themselves. This is the time where all players want to get a piece of the action. O yes and also for managers to see which players they can buy over their teams. It is like the FLEA MARKET already, lelong lelong.... for this world cup... it is more like kelong kelong...

And, not forgetting the referees, Geesh, they, are either the ones you love or hate, that is all. N yes, if you notice, there is a Singapore referee. He actually refereed for quite a few games, before coming back to singapore, actually he was back after the 16th game there. No that he refereed all the 16. There are a few, who are not very sharped eyed, and had to rely on others to tell him what went wrong, there are few who are professional as can be and hae pretty good referee skills. But I must say, there are also the ones with good stamina, who need to run everywhere the ball went, yet look out for the 22 men on the field, and also, seeing if anyone is trying to be funny to their oponents. Tough job I must say, but, hey, you are getting more than 40k for the matches you are refereeing mind you.

O yes, the cheering crowds that never fail to bring the stadium life and boose the morales of these players. They are the ones who paint their faces, wore the jerseys of the team they supported, they are also the ones, who flew all the way from wherever they are to grace this occassion. They are the ones who scream till their voice went sore and wave till their arms are breaking. Bunch of funny people thou, hahaha, and neh, shant go to the WAGS at the matches, who are suppose to be there SUPPORTING their better halves on the field, who end up SUPPORTING germany country finances by shopping till their cards EXPLODED, awwwww... how supportive can they be.

During this time of the year, it is the only time, you see walking zombies or cute looking pandas walking around in the street. Knocking into every pillar they can possible meet with their face, or even driving straight into a traffice police. Hahaha, and their eyes only open when they see the reruns of the matches on television, during lunch time in the hawker center. Geesh, I wonder if bosses are like that too. Or are they in Germany itself?? Ahhh, they are the loaded one what!!!

Now that it is over, geeesh!! I STILL HAVEN get hold of my GERMANY jersey, DANG!!! Everything is goin back to normal again, or rather, not really normal in the soccer world, but back home, everyone will be, back to their LIFELESS life... and, I dont know, learn to kick more balls i guess...

For me, it just means, more sleep, no more setting alarm clocks at 245am or loading my tibit departments with more doritos or drinks and those lovely chocolate. I might miss those days thou, but, hey, it means, I will watch more movies then!!! ahhahaha THEY ARE SO NOT LINKED!!! but... hey wat the hell... soccer is over already!! and i hate the reruns of it.... coz i dont wish to see more of those lousy actions...
yew...

And we shall see, FIFA WORLD CUP 2010, there will be a few players I sure miss....
Good bye to you, and making this one such a memorable one....

Once again... BORED...

2006-07-06T02:38:00.000-07:00

Time: 550pm
Date: 6th July 2006

Do You Have Great Taste?

Jacelyn, you have great taste when it comes to Hangouts

Hello, hipster! When the weekend rolls around, people know to look to you for the game plan. Dialed in and full of life, you always know the place to be whether it's a hot new restaurant, a happening club, a party, or a charity event. Fun loving and vibrant, you like to get out and about and enjoy life to the fullest. You know all work and no play is no way to live. When it comes to kicking up your heels and having a good time, you always manage to make it an unforgettable event no matter where you go. Rock on!

What makes you amazing?

Jacelyn, your Great Attitude makes you amazing

Attitude is everything. Lucky for you, you've got an amazing one. Fun and free-spirited, you take life as it comes and don't sweat the small stuff. And why should you?With your lighthearted and low-key approach, you brighten up any room. After all, more than most, you know there's more to life than work. A laidback and easygoing person like you would much rather spend your time hanging out with friends and experiencing life to the fullest. That's why you make any occasion that much more memorable and fun. Sounds good to us!

What kind of a kisser are you?

Jacelyn, you're a Playful Kisser

Talk about freestyle! You've got originality points when it comes to kissing. You are probably the type of person who goes with the flow and plants your pecks accordingly as each situation dictates. And why shouldn't you? The only real important rule is for you to be yourself — and to keep experimenting. If something feels good, you should keep doing it. And especially in lessons of l'amour, there's no reason to conform.So pucker up and keep seizing your moments! But before you get all crazy experimenting, sticking your tongue in your partner's ear, or getting carried away with your little love bites, remember that a kiss is between two people. You don't want to turn them off while you're getting turned on. So if that happens, take a deep breath, slow down, and try a little tenderness.

What kind of smile have you got?

Jacelyn, your celebrity smile style is Innocent Like Drew

While we'd never believe she's Never Been Kissed, Drew is sweet and innocent smile is what makes so many women want to be her, and so many men want to be with her. Like Drew, you have a sparkling personality that can light up a room (or a movie set) the moment you walk into it. Accompanied by an easy-going manner, your charming nature tells people that you are trustworthy and ready for a good time.You love to laugh about anything — jokes, pranks, yourself — and you prefer to maintain a childlike sense of wonder and amusement about the world. Even when things don't go your way, your positive attitude always helps you find the bright side of things. Keep on smiling!

Time to Celebrate

2006-07-05T13:45:00.000-07:00

Ahh...these few days, have been the best days of my entire ... month hahahaha...
Well why? I am not working, yet!! starting say, mon i guess...the new jobs. But i am stuck between 2 jobs, one with Citibank, but as a PA, i think, at least in this job, I can climb, once i get to know the environment well enuf. But the thing is, it is at Milenia Walk, kinda far. And another is at Novena, best location, opposite the gym, hahah easy access, but the thing is that, this job has no ladder, I am the highest and the lowest. O yes yes, but this job allows me to travel!! THAT IS GREAT!! but... it is like twice a year only... hmmm well I see how the interview goes for Citibank 1st, then we see how things moves...

O and of coz, my darling boy is in town, of course I am a happy person. What else!!?? hahahahahah doh...I am such an open book. O yes, and also, new music is in!! SO .. it means that!! MORE NEW MUSIC for my class... and hohohoho, today, I just found out that the sun slot, has become MY FIXED SLOT!! MY CLASS!!! MINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!! i can jump up and down and out!!1 hahahahah love it love it loveeeeeeeeeeeeeee it!!!!

I HAVE A REGULAR CLASS!!! o yesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
I will and I must make it the best class... with a crowd that comes and stay and main target??!!! ATTRACT MORE PEOPLE!!! i must master well all my techniques!! to make it for the BEST NEW COMER!!! hahahah NEH... no such award... but ... can tell one what!! hahahha
yaaay!!!

I AM SO HAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPY!!!!!
hahahaha yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!!

my Birthday

2006-07-02T21:31:00.000-07:00

Date: 3rd July
Time: 1231pm
I am bored at home... munching non-stop on food is something to entertain me. EATING EVERYTHING... freaking full... but i am so sian!!! Sigh..apparently 1 week of NUA-ing in Australia has done lots harm!! hahaha Now i cant even complete 1 hr of combat... no shites.... ARSEEEEE i am such lousy...hahaha.... no crap... but who cares.... o yes, yesterday was my 22nd bdae... not much of a celebration... in fact... no celebration at all... but it doesnt really matters.... as long as i am with the love of my life and the few friends ... i am a happy person.

sad that no pictures taken... alot of thinking on my side...thou.... shites... why do i think so much? i wonder sometimes...

now that i am 22... it starts to scare me a little that .... time flies...pretty fast... a tad bit too fast... coz to now... i have no idea what i want in life... aint that ... scary???
On top of that... being with a guy, who knows what he wants in life. organised, planned eveything out, looked ahead, confident of everything... leaves me... being totally and feeling crap... i feel likea failure next to him... i stopped work after like...3 months... of work...cant take it out there... it really sucked... so see...this kinda crap... i cant even take it... what do you make out of me? sigh....

Point Blank

2006-06-20T22:09:00.000-07:00

I haven really been sleeping very well for the past few nights, perhaps I have been sleeping too much during the day, and thus the night seemed alittle too long. Having too little time for myself, I would complain, having too much time to myself, make me think too much. Far too much.

Last night, I was in bed at, 2am, but I guessed I only fell asleep at 4am. I had been tossing and turning all night, and my head aint at all tired, the entire night, I have been thinking. Thinking of stuffs, like, what should I bring over to Aus, what are we going to do there, what am I suppose to do after when I get back, what lies in my future, where m i proceeding from here, is my wait worthwhile... So much more... it is getting scary the more u think, it is like a living nightmare.

I then realised, after all these nights, that I am actually a person who needs attention. I need companionship and more. I aint such a simple person after all. I aint a person of much a determination, i aint a person who is totally hardworking. I think I am more of a bummer, too much to bum around. Sigh...

I guess, tonight is going to be one such night again. O well, whatever that is, I will rush home to watch Portugal vs Mexico!! o yea!! tmr then i start packing... it is just a 1 week trip anyway, short trip, dont need so much to pack... O shites.... tonite... the guys are goin Zouk, mambo night... should I go??!! awwwwwwwww i am missing the retro hits!!! but ... sigh... i dunno....

O yes...I am getting pissed at people who are on MSN... they speak to u... yet without a word, they left the sentence hanging n off they go to dunno where... Pluto maybe, then leave u stuck there.... dunno what the hell is he/she talking about... what is wrong with all these people!!! Say hi...then after that...when u reply...the person like dunno in which land already... sian...

anyway, the weather is so good todae!! i think i am bakin myself at my window here man, nua-ing at the couch!! sigh... should have gone to the beach for a good tan!! hahahaha CRISPY skin!! hahahahahah honey baked!! o yea!!! well.... but ...who cares... i will just go out later... have a good meal with friends ... hangout ...then decide whether to gym....ahhahahaha

well.... nowadays... i will just chill out with friends... what is the point of a good looking bod? (not tt i have one...)...but....that is sian... high maintainance... anyway... there is not much of a point to look good...dress good and feel... great... they are all ...just .... something comforting...
boring.... sigh....

Pumpy pump!!

2006-06-04T23:54:00.000-07:00

Time: 251pm
Date: 04th June 2006

This is what me and jolene wore for ... "BEACH BABES BODYPUMP"!!! wooot!!!!
ahhaha super fun!!
o yes... we did actually BRING IN SLIPPERS!!! hahaha to make it more fun!!! hahahah

It is basically all FUN!~! hahhah way fun!!!

lets see.... o yea... i have another...
"COLOUR GALORE BODYPUMP"... the one with the wig hahahahaha.... this is DAMN COCK!!

This is how much...

2006-05-21T06:45:00.000-07:00

Time : 943pm
Date: 21st May 2006

Once again, my heart is so heartbroken. It was left shattered at the same dreadful place, the departure hall. I really really feel the pieces, slowly disintergrate into thin air, as seconds clicked nearer and nearer to depature hall.

It has been a week and a half, since he came back from UK. Everyday, for the week and a half, we had met, in one way or another, I have became very attached to him. After being used to it, for so many days, the departure, made me lost. When he stepped away from my arms, I feel the sharp piercing pain... I can feel it so bad, he is so near yet to far.

Outside, there is this 2 guys leaving, and this kid, I guessed somehow or another, related to them, cried, bad. I heard the cries, I controlled mine, which were threatening to unleash. Then, i turned, I saw a family, 2 sons, the dad and the mom, the dad is leaving, and from behind the departure hall glass, the eldest son, age bout, 9 or 10, weeped silently. The younger brother, keep providing tissue. I cant control anymore, I turned away from the departure hall, even thout he is still in sight from behind the counter.

I know, I will get a tear streaked face if i looked on more, and his parents are there. It wont be a beautiful sight. On the way home, I was very very quiet, 3/4 of the trip, I feel ... lost... I just dont have the mood at all to talk. It is like, the entire me had died, the lights out there, by the road, looked so dim, the greens in the trees and bushes, all looked grey to me. It may sound exaggerating, but i am not. I am not writing tales or novel, I am just writing about... me...

Reaching home, turning on the computer, 1st thing i do, clicked onto his blog, o, new entry. Written from the airport, me being a cry baby, as usual, yes yes, I stormed. Like now, I am in my room, cuddling at a corner writing this entry...

I miss you so much.... nothing ... n i mean nothing can describe how much I miss you...And no amount of chocolate can make me feel happy... no amount...

The Beautiful mom...

2006-05-15T09:08:00.000-07:00

If I am ever going to be a mom...
This is how I want to look like....

I want to look like her...
Dressed like her...
She is just..... a perfect looking mother...

to me....

Attention Seeker

2006-04-28T10:04:00.000-07:00

Time: 107am
Date: 29th April 2006

I hate the feeling of being alone... the feeling that I will only like, when it is either raining... or when i really need to be left alone, to think... but ... not like now... I dunno... i am writing this blog ... out of plain boredom... i know i do have the net to keep me company... but ...seeing people online, yet they are either too busy to talk to you, or they cant be bothered... that feeling suck... well coz u are so near yet so far....

Yes there is always music... but... music "speaks" to me... i mean... if i hear music that means alot to me... it is worst... there is the tv... it is on now... but ... nothing seeems to attract my attention... i get bored very fast!! geesh...this is really boring me out!!! geeesh....

I think ... i need more attention then i thought I need... this is really bad... I havent realised that... i need to be the center of attention... i dunno why... but i cry for one... hmmmm Is it suppose to be healthy? Is it suppose to be, natural? gosh... i have no idea....

Attention!! I will need to find something to suppress this... it is not healthy!! gosh.... but .... i .... sigh... i will conquer it .... i must understand... everyone has their own life... nothing revolves around me ...but me... I am ... me, myself and I... so ... i will give myself attention,.. give myself...things to do... give myself this and that... at times of need... i can only rely on myself...
it is .... more reliable... it is more... me... closer to me....

1 year anniversary

2006-04-19T23:47:00.000-07:00

Time : 1445
Date: 20th April 2006 (Thursday)

Ah... 1 year anniversary... yaay!! WAY TO GO!! we rock ... we rule... we love... we lasted... HAPPY 1 year anniversary weetheart....

well sad that he aint here... but... at least we did celebrated before he leave...

This is sickening, maybe i realise how i gain my 3kgs. FAST FOOD AND DESSERTS~~~ shites...ulimate combo that killed me immediately...alternate days, the guys from office will head to Mac Donalds, then the rest will be eating desserts at food court. DAMN... no wonder... and guess wat... i just finished the meal... MAC Meal.... Aiyoooo... this cant be happening... i should really really STAY away from it!!! DAMN!!!

I cant belief it, after staying away from MAC for the longest time, i actually went back to it, and worst, having more than ever, 3 times or twice a week!! THIS IS SO WRONG!!

damn... n on top of that, friends said that the more I gym, I wont loss weight, i will gain mass and will weigh even more!!! URGH!!! this is so contradicting~~ gym also cannot, dont gym also cannot... tell me ... tell me how?

Mariefrancebodyline... here i come!!!

Missing you..

2006-04-10T08:07:00.000-07:00

Time: 1109pm
Date: 11th April 2006

I am here once again... for yet the same reason. He took off to UK this afternoon, hell with my boss, but i think my guy here if far more inpt than the job. Dead serious.
Once again, Nickleback's Faraway is on my top playlist, repeating itself more than a mom can nag at her child. Geesh.

I simply just miss him... when he hugged me... i really feel those tears welling up...

i miss you so so so so much... i can never find the right words to us describe how i feel....

Simply : I love you...

Clueless

2006-04-03T08:54:00.000-07:00

Time: 1257am
date: 04th April 2006

There are times ... i feel insecure...
There are times ... i feel lost...
There are times ... i feel hopeless...
There are times ... i feel insignificant...
well those are the times...
Times like these sure happen...it is just a matter of how often...

Work...for one thing suck when your board members do not co-operate with you...
Or when they cant be bothered to reply you...
OR mayb they are TOO busy to REPLY you...
sigh...

Well...seriously it is like living hell when he is gone and work suck and gym...well suck too...
there are times like that too ...trust me... there are...n it just suck...
i just need a goood bear hug... and a gentle whisper of " it is gona be alright..."
simple...

Now... he is same... back for a week... n off he goes....
sigh.... sad ??? well... not really.... happy??? doh.... i am just... i dont know....
mixed up ....

Yes yes ... there are times whereby i just curse and swear...saying how come i cannot spend more time with him? when he is around,... my sucking time at work just make me miss him more...n think that work suck and a total waste of time...shites.... when he aint around ... well i need not say much....

I have no idea where this blog is going and what is the point of this entry...
all i noe is... i just pen what i am thinking....

i simply...

need a hug....
need attention...
need love...
need care....
need the touch...
need kisses....

need them everydae...
the more the merrier....

but ... of coz... there is nothing such as happily ever after....

is there?
hmmmmm

Sudden wish list

2006-03-23T01:36:00.000-08:00

I am in the office...
suddenly... i thought of a list of what i wan...
in short, a wish-list!!!
yaaay... leme see... shall pen it down and... i will start buying one ... every month .... if i am good... hahaha

1) Zara brown poka dots tub top. S$ 60
2) Nike Black base sports shoes S$ 100 - 150
3) Nike White base sports shoes S$ 100 - 150
4) Nike Sports Bra S$ 70
5) Laura Jane Sports Shorts S$ 70 - 100
6) Nike / Adidas Big Sports bag S$70 - 110
7) Handbags for office S$ 70 - 100
8) Shoes for office S$ 100 - 150
9) Wallet S$ 100 - 200
10) More CLOTHESSSSSS S$ 100 - 200
11) Stuffs for my sweetheart S$ (is there a price?), just top priority. IT SHOULD BE ON TOP
OF THE LIST~~

Pls: the entire list is not according to priority, just a random list...

I DONT KNOW!!! the list seems to go on n on n on....
shites...i am never satisfied... geeesh...
but..... i mean.... i need some of it... not all... the rest ... i want... ahhh
wat a difference....
hmmm n wish list are just fun things to create... no sweat... just a lot of thinking hahahah and tabulating

they are fun!!! hahahahah but... me still being a girl...(yes yes ...im still a gal!!) i think ... the list will just cont. to expand n expand n expand.... everylasting.... siaaaaaaaaaaa

The Message

2006-03-12T09:09:00.000-08:00

He is my life...
He is my love...
He is my everything....
He is .... simply...mine...
=)

n ... i miss him...

Hate...

2006-03-09T07:25:00.000-08:00

Date: 6th March 2006
Time : 2am

I hate the feeling of being reprimanded...
I hate the feeling of being raised voice at ....
I hate to be being shouted at...
I hate it when someone is being fierce to me...

I know that, it is the best way for confrontation...
but i still hate it...

I know it is for my good....
but... the feeling just suck...

to me...it is like ... im being slapped...n leaving my face burning hot...
yuck....

Fucking hell... i really hate being raised voice at ....
fucking hate.....

*stone...*

Hands down...

2006-02-26T08:42:00.000-08:00

Time : 1250am
Dae: Sun...

I am frustrated...
I am pissed...

I am tired...
I am disappointed...

I am down...
I am depressed...

I am ... still waiting...

I feel like screaming!!! but ...does it help???
make time go faster PLEASE!!!!
PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I am feeling so tortured here....

apparently Kenny G...cant help much here...

i think ... i need to listen to SCREAMIN LINKIN PARK!! or...

DRUMS AND BASS- SAFRI DUO!!!

to drown my sorrows.....

THE MEANING of Kenny G

2006-02-26T08:20:00.000-08:00

Time: 1230am
Date / Dae : 26th Feb / Sun

Listening to Kenny G...
listening to him...for me actually has only 2 meaning...
when i listen to him.... it only means ....
1) it is raining and i m home... n the wind blowing in my face....
2) i miss someone....bad...real bad....

well... it is not raining here ...as far as i know....

More to come!!!!

2006-02-21T06:58:00.000-08:00

Time: 1101pm
Date / Dae: 21st Feb 2006 / Tues

Oooo…it is a long day of co-ordinations todae… 1st thing in the morning, set up the documents and agenda for the board meeting later in the noon. Then after that rushed to finish up a project that is due tmr, that japan project. Then after that, noon came, and I went over to Taiwan Porridge at amoy street for the board meeting. There for the 1st time I see most of the board members. They are all friendly chaps I must say. Hahahah… n o ya… did I mention that alan, a guy I know from gym, is one of the board members!!! Hahahaha….

The meeting, includes makaning as well, n yes I am very looked after by them. It aint a very nice place for food or meal I must say, it is just a place conducive enuf for meeting to be held. Anyway…. It last till 230pm, then straight after I and another program director had to head off for another meeting for the upcoming event, on the 1st of march. We had the meeting till 430pm…I am seriously beat… brain dead…tooo much information to remember…tooo much details.

There are so many things that I need to do man!! Really really a lot. Pwah!! That is y I just left the office todae at 7pm…I actually wana go gym…but …those work really turn me off…I get switched off… n it has been 2 daes since I last gym…GOSH!!! I really m getting fat!! I can feel the fats OOOOZING out on my tummy and also those thighs are getting more thunderous than ever!! FISH CAKE NOOODLE!!!! Siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Well, as I said ealier todae I did a lot of co-ordination… well… coz… I m bz cor-ordinatin 14 other gals together to surprise keith… siaaaaa…so many gals so many stuffs…. Aiyooo…so I sort things out…spent hours on emails here n there… msn with bosses…calls with directors… aiyooo… bz bz dae I have todae… but at least I am bz… which is good!!! Yaaay!!! Hahahaha

Tomorrow I MUST GO GYM!!! Siaaaa… else I will really become a fat slop!!!!
N o yes…talking bout this … must charge my devices…all bat flat…. Must memorise my tracks for fri and sun…. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Sun…wat tracks can I use… n also …after tht …. Chill out at the beach!! YAAAAY!!

10 more daes…..
240hrs more…

sad...

2006-02-16T06:55:00.000-08:00

time: 103pm
date/dae: 16th feb06 / thurs

sad....
i am so MOOD SWINGING...trust me...
i used to have a pretty close frien....then after that i intro her to another friend of mine... n guess what??? i lost my close friend to that friend i intro her to...
tell me.... how sickenin can that be????

how many times must i loss my friends ????

i think i have lost so many... i got afraid of having close close friends....
just when i thot... it would b ok....
it happen again....

sigh....

i am simple hopeless with close friends... with best mates... with gal-friends...

gushing... i am...

2006-02-09T23:10:00.000-08:00

Time: 319pm
Date/ dae: 10th feb'06 / fri

After watching the 2nd time of that chinese movie "All About Love" feat Andy lau.... i realised that it is the words used in the movie that is touching... n not really the plot... it is a simple plot...but the way the words used around.... made the whole movie different...

n i think...i like .... the actor!!1 hahahah that is y i think i like that movie... i like andy lau !! hahaha i like the smallest bit of him... from ... his hair cut, how that suit sits on his body, how he move, how he react, his facial/ physical reactions to ... how that ring is placed on his finger...

hahha fatish ... yes ... i like to see guys with a nice ring on their 4th finger!!!!1 hahahh DOH!!! and o ya... guys who wear watch on the right wrist!! hahah OOOPSS... he aint rite??? o well .. watever... i am so goin crazy hahahahhah STAR STRUCK!!! but .. i must admit he is old liao ... but he age gallantly!! which is good!! !x-factor!!! hmmmmmmm

o yes.... n im goin for the 2nd interview this sun.... at boat quay.... o boy o boy ... better get this job!! then can leave PRUDENTIAL OUT of mind.....
oooook... gota go... gym lo... work those excesss away... actually they are PINEAPPLE TARTS hahahahah n ... junk!!! like DORITOS and chocolate... yuck....

WORDy tests...sigh...

2006-02-09T03:44:00.000-08:00

Time chk: 832pm
Date/ Dae : 09th Feb 06/ Thurs (5 more daes to VDae)

ok ok i am hardly home at this time... on a thurs... but ...i am home... coz i miss him ... simply do... my guy... so the only way i can get CLOSER to him??? online... seeing him there... makes my dae... n while chatting...i did these....CHECK IT OUT!!!

The Brain Test
What Your Brain Says About How You Think and Learn

jacelyn, you are Balanced-brained

That means you are able to draw on the strengths of both the right and left hemispheres of your brain, depending upon a given situation. When you need to explain a complicated process to someone, or plan a detailed vacation, the left hemisphere of your brain, which is responsible for your ability to solve problems logically, might kick in. But if you were critiquing an art opening or coming up with an original way to file papers, the right side of your brain, which is responsible for noticing subtle details in things, might take over. While many people have clearly dominant left- or right-brained tendencies, you are able to draw on skills from both hemispheres of your brain.

This rare combination makes you a very creative and flexible thinker. The down side to being balanced-brained is that you may sometimes feel paralyzed by indecision when the two hemispheres of your brain are competing to solve a problem in their own unique ways.

The Love Test
What Are You Like in Love?

j, when you're head over heels, you are an Idealistic Romantic

"Happily ever after," may be the three words that you enjoy dreaming about, — next to "I love you," of course. As an idealistic romantic, you likely have your share of idealistic dreams for the future, especially when it comes to imaging your perfect partner. As a skilled socializer who knows how to make the people in your life feel special, you're apt to have your eye out for someone who can do the same.

The rituals of romance are important to you, so someone who doesn't appreciate the value of things like red roses and candlelight dinners probably won't hold your interest for very long. However, you're not just looking for a thoughtful date. You seek a deeper emotional bond. Once you find that special love, you'll probably be the first to declare that you're head-over-heels rather than hold back you're emotions. After all, what good is being in love if you can't share it?

Who are you compatible with?

When it's all said and done, much of compatibility comes down to that X factor known as chemistry. However, by knowing the love personality types that are the closest fit with your own, you're much more likely to know a good thing when you see it.

Also, understanding your compatible types can give you new insight to why certain people you meet just don't seem to match up. Realize that most relationship problems can be fixed — so you're far from doomed if your types aren't a perfect match. Instead, think of the information as a mechanism to learn more about yourself and your romantic life.Although the old adage tells us that "opposites attract," generally, research indicates otherwise. In fact, studies show that opposites don't attract; similar people do. So the type that you're apt to be most compatible with is actually your own: the Idealistic Romantic.

There are, of course, exceptions to this rule. However the dimensions measured in this test focus on attitudes and behaviors that, when matched between two people, increase probability of having a compatible relationship.When looking for a match, the type that is the next most compatible to your own is Essential Companion.If you're looking for a genuine, down-to-earth partner who knows how to treat others with kindness, you'd best look in the direction of an essential companion. They not only respect and value the people in their lives but also make their relationships a top priority. However, they're usually not the type to try to impress others with fancy romantic gestures. Nor are they apt to spend time worrying about their appearance in a superficial manner. If that special someone is willing to take them as they are, they will happily do the same in return. Otherwise, they'll probably keep on walking.They're probably interested in finding a partner who will be equally committed to things like quality time and genuine communication. That way, they can focus on one another without all the bells and whistles that some people consider an essential part of a good relationship. When they find an individual who feels the way they do about these things, the relationship will be a truly special one.

You should also look for a Steady Mate when scouting out romance; that's the second most compatible type to your own. Steady mates are the kind of romantic partners that others will want to lean on in times of distress. This is true because their logical minds allow them to remain cool-headed during a crisis. This quality can make them seem a bit heroic at times. And for that reason, mates who value their calm, rational nature will make a great match. They need someone who won't expect them to be overly softhearted or to express their feelings all the time. Their mates should know that just because they don't always express their emotions, it doesn't mean that they don't care. On the contrary, they'll always value the quality of the connections between them and the people they care about. Because of this fact, it will be important for them to find a romantic partner who knows how to care about a relationship and put some effort into it. Once they find a person like that, they can live life to the fullest. So now that you know the love personality types you're most compatible with, what about the ones that you're least similar to?

Here's some information about the type that is your opposite.Who isn't a good match for you?The type opposite to yours is Independent Spirit. If independent spirits had a theme song, it would probably be "Don't Box Me In."

Independent spirits typically aren't fond of being crowded. On the contrary, they appreciate having the space to do their own thing and don't often feel swayed by what others are up to. They're not the type who typically feels the need to hang out at the "cool" clubs or sample the latest restaurants. In fact, they may not even know the latest buzz about those things, since those things really aren't important to them. They probably prefer to come up with their own ideas of places to go and people to spend time with. Others are naturally drawn to their sense of creativity and the mystery that surrounds their lives. Sometimes, independent spirits will treasure the company of others, but only if those people aren't super-dependent types who want to be with them all the time. Finding a like-minded spirit, someone who prizes their independence as much as they do, will probably bring them and their mate the most happiness. Now you have your guide to helping you spot a good mate. But once you find a relationship, you want to be able to hang onto it. That's where understanding your personality really comes into play. Read on for advice to keep your love going strong.

I m back!!!

2006-02-05T19:23:00.000-08:00

Time check: 1206pm
Date / Dae: 06th Feb 06 ( mon)

I AM BACK!!! hahahahahha well yes yes... apparently i cannot even shuddup for long ... aahahaha...
n yes... i am back...

leme seee...what is being missed out....

yes... it is the CNY week!!!! hahahahha n more ang paos... more foood more pineapple tarts more chocolate!! MORE OF EVERYTHING!!! wooooow!!!! o yes.... n went to my guy's friend's place... n after that ... the few of us there....yes yes...gambled went makan... i noe i cant gamble ...coz i nv have luck with gamblin hahahahah ... so dun bother.... n after that ....we went FISH n CO again to eat... i am bored of that place already!!!!!! coz if i m not wrong ...the dae b4 or so we went there to eat.... i mean fish n co... so i am so sian liao..... wont eat there for the next year.... hahahaha

o yes...watched "FEARLESS" with my guy n 2 other friends on ... tuesdae ??? i think...n yes... i must say... it is a good show... so...ACTION ahhahahaha... it is not bad i must say.... very JET LEE movie ... i like that theme song thou hahahahah even thou i DO NOT HAVE A SINGLE IDEA what that JAY CHOU is mumbling (as if anyone of us understand his previous few songs... hahah)... but i do love the MTV... o yes.....

n then... sat .... we went to watch "WALK THE LINE" feat Reese Witherspoon and Joaquin Phoneix... GOOOD MOVIE!! bout Johnny Cash and Jun Carther!! o yea!!! it is like Ray Charles!!! hahaah similar... nice... coz i love the music!! n yes... he sings like the KING - Elvis Prestley!!! hahahahahha it is no wonder the movie god 4 wins in the Globes and some nominations for he upcoming Oscars!!! EXCITING!!!

wat else??? o yes...went Buffet with both fam of parents... at LING ZHI - a vegetarian buffet, located at Far EAst Sq at raffles place... not bad la... been there once... now there again... i think it is ok.... thou i can tell that .... my guy... aint much of a vegetarian eater hahahhaha....n that is on a fri...

on sat...after working out crap at the gym in the morn... we went to watch "WALK THE LINE" then after that ... head over to "KUSHINBO" to makan... o yea.... 4 of us in total... i like it when there are a few of us together eating... there are so much talking and crapping anf STUFFING of food! HAAAHAHAHAA .... n it is really a great nite to rem!!! hahah ESP when there is a camera cum cam-corder hahahahahahaah hilarious nite!!! but ... it is a great nite!!!!
(will upload pic IF i get hold of any pic from the nite!!!)

n yes...after the movie...we wanted to go toilet!! BUT!! all the toilet long long long Q... like as if there is a GREAT SALES inside sia!!!! so ... we decided to go into the toilet at ORIENTAL HOTEL... n i tell u ... nice!!! TOTALLY NICE TOILET!!! 5stars means 5starts man!!! wooooot!!!
PIC of the toilet!!! hahahah we actually TOOOOK MORE!! me and eva!! COZ WE ACTUALLY HAD CAMERA WITH US!!!! ahhahaahhah (HEY DUN THINK SO MUCH!!!! )

now lets seeeeee.... bought stuffs for vdae.... coz i cannot celebrate with my guy... but it is ok... it is ok.... i am fine.... then ... he left... last nite.... ( pathetic face i have rite???)

Below: CANT U READ IT URSELF???? i am still upset to read....

Below: yes yes... bite bite bite... bite my lips.... wat else???

i m waiting... till march... for u to return!!!! i will.....

i lost...

2006-01-26T08:21:00.000-08:00

Time :1224am
Date : 27th Jan 2006 ( thurs)

i have enuf....
sigh...

surrender....

u win... i lose... hands down...

grey matter...

2006-01-23T18:53:00.000-08:00

Time Checked : 1056am
Date: 24th Jan 2006

It has been some time since i last blogged... yes i said in my previous entry that, it was my last entry for some time... but apparently it aint that long before i blog again rite??
Stuffs has been bothering me last nite... whole nite.. seriously...
serious issue... i must say... crap... being with a person for too long and hainv fun time together...is a serious issue... it just make u grow attached to that person and start neglecting people around you... they somehow just ... aint that important anymore...

People and things around me keeps reminding me of him...alot of things...
last night was a very bad night... i was very very tired... but i really cant sleep... i tossed and turned in bed.. tuned in to radio, listen to mp3.. all the way till 4am...i fell aslp, woke up at 7am...stomache upset... then slpt at 8... woke up at 9... sigh... when i woke up... that same thot flood back to my head... shites it aint helping ....

it may sound totally relevant ...but it aint... this is crap!!!

i feel like crap...
sigh....

n talking bout this reminds me ... yesterdae i sent a complain letter to sch... n todae...when i called them, they were lik so panicky co of the complain letter... they were saying that i m impatient...but the complaing letter actually has MAGIC effect... hahah it make them work faster!!! n anyway ... i managed to fight my way through to get back 90% of my fees... they are now processing my refund!!! o yes!! i am happy that i manage to get my $$$ back... at least ... some ... better than NUTHING!!!

that is one stone down...

sigh... there is still a HUGE mountain in my throat ... waiting for me to throw it out...sigh...

thinking of the happy times... make me tear....
i am indeed a true weakling...

never judge a person by its appearance!! i may look like i will never fall fom the cover... but deep inside... i am as weak as a new leaf... fragile... i truely am...

n i think ... i am a sentimental fool who get attached to a person very fast... i deteched from a person as fast when being ignore... i am just .... urgh.... i dunno....
" .... women, a mysterious creature... "

My last entry...

2006-01-08T19:51:00.000-08:00

Time: 1154am (singapore time)
Date: 09th Jan'05

y m i back here??? coz he just flew off... i guess it had already been a routine that once he fly... i reach home... i blog... dunno the main reason.. .but just wana get the load off... but i cant... so i just just blog... just to let out my feelings..

being too attached to a person ... then gota leave for a period of time... it aint a good thing to do... for a sec u wont or might not feel the pinch... but ...wait till reality sits in... u will start to cry ... trust me... i felt that last nite already... guess not one else felt it ...but me.... wat a cry baby i am... chey.... * throw face* heh....

2 weeks may sounds like a blink away... but. .. hey... it is long mind u... tooo long for me.... sigh... watever... i willl just try to study then... i need to ... after thinking for ages... i think studying is still wat i have to do...just not to disappoint a few ppl... i guess i will stick to this 1st...

bloggin here has been stressing for me already...

i may take a short break here n there...

b4 i leave... n say my last goodbye...

i shall upload some pic....
for eyes galoreeeeeeeeeeeeeee

(FROM LONDON!!!!!)

(FROM FINLAND)

(FROM BELGIUM)

slacking tooo much

2006-01-07T09:51:00.000-08:00

after 3 weeks of slacking around and purely NO exercise for the EXERCISE FREAK me.... i went for 2 classes todae.... only pump is a challenge to me... not the combat.,... to EZ... the pump has shown how much i deteoriate.... seriously???? i m in a very bad shape...to bad i m starting to freak out...i think i am freaking out for mon nite's TT with liz....

went for 1 hr pump... n trust me when i say..i am aching from that blardy pump.... shites.....

i suck... n u will see how i die mon...
tmr have to memorise music lo....

o yes... n i SANG AT KTV todae....

buy 4D todae...will win...sure... hahahah

some thots

2006-01-06T08:43:00.000-08:00

crap...painsakenly chg that titles of all the 100+ pics from Belgium...n resizing... in the end my comp auto-shutdown... killed it all.... it took me .... 2hrssssssssssssssssssssssssss... a good whole 2 hrs can!! n one slip sec... GONE....damn....

watever....

at this moment... m talking to 2 person..a gal and a guy... guy likes gal... gal just broke off with her bf..then thinks that she likes this guy ... but might be falling for him just becoz she missed being loved and pampered....guy likes her since some time back... hmmmm

wat can i say... if u like someone...wana do something... do it quick...after u decide... think and determine to do it...then do... y wait... y drag and wait... sigh...there is never chances that keeps coming...take the chance...ask...act...do it!!! B A MAN!!!! halooooooooooooo...

coming home is one happy thing... but ...coming home to noe that u have stuffs to do..sch to go... and things to learn... just aint motivatin enuf for me...not fun enuf for me... challengin thou..but i hate these challenges... yuck.... just say that ...it suck...

for that 1 week when i wasnt feelin very well...resting ... sleeepless nites make me thing whether to study or not.... it keeps making me think....i shouldnt have take the class then... i can save the $$$$$ that is very much needed these daes... i shouldnt have cont class so that i can go work get $$$$ and fork in here n there ....i shouldnt have said that i wana study...as i think... i have lost interest in studying....

this is bad....

forget it... todae... i went to pay sch fees and also... i got .... boooks...so... no more whining...
n ... gota buck up n study....

i wonder if i can take it tmr ...at gym... hmmmm....i hope so....joel's pump n rino's combat...

From London, for the last time

2005-12-29T17:12:00.000-08:00

Time: 0135am UK - London time
Date: 30th Dec 05

Just came back from Belgium.... oooo...n pizza buffet hahahaha...it is ok... just pizza...nothing much...sudden cravin for it ... that is all...o yes...n back to belgium brrrrrrrrrr cold place for a place where the bestest best chocolate came from...it is the best place for chocolate tasting... n for all chocolate lovers.. but i must say 1st... if the weather aint that cold... it will b just perfect for me...

train ride from london, waterloo to belgium...bout 2hrs express train...pretty fast... but...i am bored in the train after ...1/2 an hr... nothing to do...seriously it sucked.... geesh...upon reaching here... the cold wind... just blasted me off... i guess i must have pulled a freaking moody face la... ahhaha but ...my face is tooooooooo frozen to smile liao... very cold... my eyes are so watering ...it seeemed like i am crying lo... coz the cold wind is simply drying my eyes up.... brrrrrrrrrr....

took a 1/2 an hr walk to the hotel... the place is nice... but...i am REALLY REALLY toooo cold to enjoy the surronding...it is way way colder then in London... brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....n so.... i simply have my eyes pretty much closed... n my pace tooo fast to see the place and my face...to frozen to smile hahahah or even twitch...

belgium... a place where english do not dominate...but french... crap....
but for me... it is the place for chocolate... hahahhaa
everydae for the past 3 daes i have nothing but chocolate... after or b4 any meal... i had chocolate... i mean it... hahahah it is GOOOD...

i had milk chocolate...
i had dark chocolate...
i had coffee chocolate...
i had orange chocolate...
i had wine chocolate...
i had champagne chocolate...
simply... i had all the chocolate in the whole... the varieties of chocolate ther... GOSH... just say.... more then ur eyes can feast on.... weeeeeeew!!!!

n just say that...the amt of $$$ spent on chocolate... is way tooooo much!!! woooow... i think can b more then what i get for allowance a month !!! AHAHAHAHAHA i am serious!!!! that is alot of $$$ but not alot of chocolate... coz they are expensive... it is a country of chocolate and well known for chocolate what!! so...what to do...

blegium here ...is also known as waffle town!! hahahahah they have waffles everywhere...at every turn of the streeet u can see waffles being sold either in a cafe where u can enjoy hot chocolate or tea with... or u can take n go...eat as u walk waffles...

there are simply so many waffles... same as the amt of chocolate they have...
leige waffles with anything...eg chocolate... butter...sugar...
pancakes with anything... eg whip cream...fruits... maple syrup...
normal waffles with anything...eg honey.... ice cream...plain...
it is really a whole lot to choose from... woooow...

sigh... but guess what... this entry means that .... holi is coming to the end for me...means that i will need to get back to sg soooon...means sch is goin to reopen and means that nightmare is about to begin all over again...sigh...

what i will miss is... the scones here... hahah i am serious... i love the scones here....freaking love it man!!! it taste fantastic at anytime of the dae... i love the krispy kreme here...esp that chocolate ones... no kidding...ahhahaha rich in chocolate inside out... i miss the laksa here also... best tasting in town...better than the ones in sg trust me!!! weeew... i love the scenery here...cant get them anywhere in sg either... i miss... alot of stuffs... i noe i will..... sigh....
i guess i will miss being able to slack here too... nothing to do but hang out with my guy... n enjoy life.... but i noe ... nothing good happens for long...else how are u goin to cherish it??? rite???

well.... it aint early here... gota go sooon...

hate to sleep... coz when i wake up...to a brand new dae... it will means that i have a dae shorter to enjoy my holi.... sigh... life... still aint that great after all....

From London

2005-12-24T02:59:00.000-08:00

Time: 11.05am (London time)
Date: 24th dec'05

HO HO HO ... it is time of the year again!!

a time for givings and takings...

a time for forgetting all grudges and let it all go...

a time where shops are flooded with ppl queuing, buying xmas gifts...

a time where many actually decide to leave singapore for holidaes...

a time where ...all turkey wana cry hahahha....

n ... ok ok ... a time where u get all the love ones... gathered for a meal... for a feast!!!

a time to share joy!!!

o i simply love xmasssssssss!!!

since long ago.... xmas has been fun!!!
if u are back in SG.. well.... there are loads on TV...

hahah...well.... ok ok .... not much time here....

just came back from FINLAND... so... more pictures will b up sooon...

meanwhile... party ... get drunk... n b part of the CELEBRATION!!!!!
u are NEVER alone on xmas dae!!!!

*hugs*

merry ho ho ho xmas singapore!!!!

From London

2005-12-18T14:13:00.000-08:00

yiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
reportin from Uk - London (2230pm, Sun)
temp: 6deg?? 5??? i thot it was 2 deg!!!!!

it is freeezin cold here!!! i am in UK!!! yaaay!! lets seee... it is dae ...3???? watever that it... doesnt matter... it is just freezin cold here ...till i think time is freezin toooo hahahaahahah .... gosh.... my nose has never ran stuch long marathon b4... i doubt it can take it!! ahhahah

there are so many lovely pic that i have taken ... but i will only post it up say... when ia m back in sg...

sigh... i just hope that the time wont reach sooon...coz it means i will b back in sg and means that .... sch is reopening sooon!! CRAP!!!! hate it!! hate it !! SO MUCH!!!! sigh.....

anyway...dont spoil my holi mood now... let see... apart form being sick since i was on my flight here.... i think i haven been cooperating very well with my guy... well... dae 1 that we were out ...i m so sick actually... ireally cant talk... the blistering cold wind just keep slashing my face ... nonstop.... i keep breathing in the cold air... make it dry up my already very sore throat... that is y i am sulking!! bad bad bad!! there are so much stuffs i can eat lo!!!!! sigh...chocolate!!!!

wat i have ate the most ???!!! - STREPSILS!!!!! geeesh.... have no choice .... hahahaha n medicince for cold!!!

o ya o ya!!! i simply love the LAKSA!!! really really!! it has been years since i last ate laksa!! n i m serious when i said years... i think ...the last time i ate laksa was....4 to 5 years back!! HJAHAHAHA no kidding!! n i tell u !! the laksa here is nice!! VERY VERY!!! i love it!! the 1st thing i ate when i reach LONDON!! LOVEEEEEEEEEEE IT!!!! i can eat them everydae!!!
1st- the hot and spicy curry make me sweat.
2nd - the hot piping soup make me warm up against the totally unfriendly cold wind out ther....
3rd - well...say... i miss it...for 5 years in sg!!
4th - singapore?? tooo hot a place for me to appreciate this!!!
5th - the only place with chillli!!!! n trust me when i say it is the only place i can get REAL chilli!!!

o m i think!! SERIOUS THINK the ppl in UK are all PUSSIES LO!!!!! blary cant eat chilli!! all eat ketchup!!!! GOSHHHHHHHHHHHH.. .yes yes... watever... they drink dae in dae out... hour in hour out!! thinking that they are so man!! helll!!! hmph.... lousy!!!

n at this moment¬¬¬ EATING CHOCOLATE!! HEAVEN!!!!
crap... have a feeling i will look like a pig when i am back!!! slack tooo much around... not working out!!! hahahaha my guy and henry went gym... n me???? eatin chocolate!! hey ... i think i am working out ... EATING IS A WOROUT!!!! (ok ok...that is me trying to console myself!!!)

hahah ok ok they are back!!! byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

BZ eating weeek!!

2005-12-14T08:23:00.000-08:00

Time : 1250am
Date: 15th Dec 2005 ( thurs )

Lets just say...nothing describe what i am feeling now!!!
it has been almost a week since he leave... n yes... which means... i will b heading over sooon! VERY!! but apparently time is kinda passing a tad bit too slow...

this week... has been a very bz week for me...
well... apart from zouk... i have not partied la!! even thou ... part of my friend's plan is to party tonite... ahha hat MOS...Ministry Of Sound... ive got invites ... but i ... neh ...give it a miss.... or the gals wana go mambo... but in the end...forget it ... nv go...
mon...after working out...like crap...we went to eat!!! AIYOOO at tiong bahru market!! SINFUL again!! all the fattening stuffs... char keuy teow... chui keuy...aiyooo alll the super fattening oily stuffs la!! then after that we went dessert at tan kwee lan... a friend's place for dessert.... goshhhhhhhhhhh i love my sour sop!! hahah had a huge bowl of it...n also ... chocolate fondue!!!! u see u see!! how to slim down siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

then come tues.... suppose to go over to bugis to do JC boxercies... but... we were on waiting list...then i am heading over to bugis for classes...but chris called me last min for dinner then in the end we went... the whole table of ... 8... meng, eva, ozy, delvin, diana, wendel, chris n me!! we went marche to EAT!!! U SEE U SEEEEEE EAT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wah liew!! fattening!! coz we had everything from rosti, to pizza to savoury crepes!!! GOSHHHHHHHHHH tooo much carbo!!!! for me!!! i almost puke!!!

then lets see... todae wed... went for class...trying desperately to shed those extra from the last 2 daes... got a call from kenny and lyn... in the end...we went holland V for XO Fish slice noodles and other stuffs.... not bad.... but ..... also ...carb load... wat is wrong with them!! always load wrong food at wrong time!!!

sigh... there goes my resolution of getting slimmer for UK.... crap!!!

nites of eatin n eating!!! gosh!! very bad!! for health ... yes yes... n also ... for .... wallet... gosh...
no more ...tmr....
i will need to go get some stuffs....boots..bag... some other small stuffs here n there... n eva still wana watch movie... aiyo... see 1st lo...seee got time 1st....

o yaaaay!! i got my 1st xmas gift already!!! yaaay!!!

n i haven really sit down to pack... i will do it tmr...so i noe what to buy... tmr....

b4 that.... wait... need to go print $$$ 1st.... wait ah.....

*printing in process......*

*beeeeep*

*please wait.......*

*999999999 more copies.......*

zouk-ed OUT

2005-12-11T21:37:00.000-08:00

Time checked : 2.09pm
Date: 12th Dec 2005 (mon)

ah ha!! this year!! i am back to the happenin scene of zoukout!! yea man!! ZOUKOUT 2005!!! hahaha the greatest party of the year... supposely i guess... this yea??? well...it is ok for me...went with eva was ok.... she is ok...got drunk and tipsy when we were just queuing in... gosh... n she says she wana protect me! hahaha LOOOK WHOS TALKIN AHAHAH...

grace insist that i meet her 1st... then we go party together... trust me when i say i will not party with her anymore... ever again....sigh... she is a ..... hmmm...NAG.... hahahaha watever that is...she just ruin my nite!!! gosh!!!! fhaw!!!!

i meet so many of my friends there... meet:

1) John in the Queue... hahah but we cut all the way to the front!! dun care hahahha...
2) lek, kevin and the whole gang of 16 at the hawker of harbourfront...
3) Han and gang at mac donalds in harbourfront...
4) Ritz and gang inside the arena
5) William with his princesses at the swing thingy...
6) Shyam at the mambo jambo arena... he just came over to knock my head... he slimmed down so much!! guess the SEA GAmes made him lost lotsa weight!! his sprint is goood!!! he is singapore glory hahahah
7) Helly and her gang with bf at the mambo jumbo arena!! hahahah....
8) angy sq, alvin and the whole ssb gang later at the chillout area!!!
9) james and his gf with their friends at the shelter when we were taking shelter from the rain!!
10) guess there are just tooooo many to name!!! hahahahaahah

THERE ARE JUST SO MANY PPL THERE!! no i do not know so many ppl... it just happen to b a small place!! hahahaha the whole of sentosa... small island u noe!! but there are just toooo many to name!!! hahaha...

lets see... the mambo music... AT FIRST was ok...then it becomes more hip hop... n trust me... out oif 20 songs... only 3 are mambo!!! yuck!!!!! suck an idiot!! it is a mambo arena!! n where were the mambo songs!!!! crap!!! n whole nite ...i am dancing to crappy hip hops.... fish.....

the main arena pulls in the main crowd i must say!!! good music!!! GREAT FUN!! great energy!! but .... the guys aint partying enuf to b there to enjoy the party scene!! i should have hang out with my gang ... lek n all instead!! they are more fun!! shites!!!!

nvm... next year!!!!

o yes... the launch of pump, combat and balance!! i wont b in sg for the release!! BUT HEY!! combat aint that fun fun!! just tiring!!1 hahahah but... not bad..... give them some credit!! but ...pump??!!!! it is just great!!! o yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

this week... a week of pure packin and pure power!! hahahaha n some shopping!! gettin all geared up for UK!! o yea!!!! there are just so much to do!!! hahah i think!! wana get a tan this morn when the sun is all fine!! i m CALLED up to do more grocery shopping ...sigh... forget it!! i just reach home... n guess what i am heading out sooon!!! gym time!!! hahahaha

well.... i am getting all so excited since last week on goin to UK!!! n this time!! the time is near !! n hey!!! i will post more pic!!!

Silent killer

2005-12-08T20:01:00.000-08:00

Time: 1212pm
Date: 09th Dec' 05

Listenin to: Ever the same - Rob Thomas
( brand new song.... nice....)

The reason why there is always a Time and Date in the beginning of the blog...coz there is something wrong with my blog template... cant choose the time and date... hmm watever...small thing to b of concern compared to other stuffs that are more impt...

yes yes the main reason for me back here... same same... that same depature hall that depresses me... what else.... that is one.... gym is another...and sch ...the worst... fam?? hahahaha hmmm lets say...they aint supportive...

she said.. "i wondered if ur dad will allow u to go UK next week..."

that sentence...sent me from hell way down to the core of the earth.... how much more depression can one suffer... how much chocolate can one down in order to feel happy??? i have down at least 1kg worth or mayb 2 kg... but... i still m feeling totally shite... really ....i am dead serious...

what if... i reallly cant go??? y whenever i wana travel there are always so many setbacks!!!??? y??? sian.... i really dunno what to do with me??? this morn i get more shite then ever!! more interrogations!! i dun even have the mood at all to step out of house todae... raining... make life more gloooomy....

i was thinking of gettin boots... that pair that i like alot...but...sigh.... i think i can forget it... i have no mood to shop at all....no cash.... at all....
dun think my parents till chip in this time....
they have already no time to get a handful of me.... how on earth will they give me $$$ to spend?? sigh.... they are always that demoralising!! never supportive!! trust me when i say never!! no hint of support in whatever i do!! since dae 1... since 21 years ago...

shite shite shite!!!! i am so........ FUCKING mooody now~~~~~~~

SHUDDUP EVERYONE!! SHUDDDUP!!!! i wana b in peace!! i wana b alone!! i ned to think!! i need to breathe!! i need space!!! i neeed.... i just need....

i need to just get out of here.... shut everything up!! just work my arse off!!!! sweat my sweat glands!!! n burst my heart!! i think i will die happy then n there....
it is a shutdown.. i think for once i am experiencing a shutdown... i really cant face the facts!!! i cant face reality!!! there are so much stuffs that is goin thru....

i cant put on that mask again....
i have been trying very hard to smile these daes... to enjoy everything....
i am so crying inside... i just cant show... i really cant...
i am a happy person...a strong person...a determine person,.... from outside....

inside??? i am a hollow person.... living by its dae....

will anyone noe that i am missing if ...i am never born???

*sobs*

what a sad dae...

2005-12-05T08:14:00.000-08:00

Time check: 1230am
Dae: Tues (06th Dec'05)

it has been sometime since i last blog... guess i there was not a real need for me to blog ... coz my guy is back...yup yup... he is back... but he is here n there.... in KL now and then... for a fw daes and back...it is tiring for him...to know that he is nt feeling well at all when he is back in singapore... and to learn that he had not eaten at all in KL but work all dae... tell me... who on earth does that??? even superman dont do that!!! sigh.... he is falling sick sooon... it pains my heart so much...

He is suppose to come home todae... but guess something screwed up in KL and therefore he had no choice but to stay over for another nite... sigh...i was so sad when he called me and tell me that he cant make it home todae... seriously???!!! i was on the verge of tears... gosh... in the bz bz orchard road.... joey... who was with me ...saw me ...strugglin to keep the tears in ... she sugggested we go eat...

guess i just wanted to see him badly...very.... i was so happy...when i thot i could see him sooon... joey was like ... ahhah cant wait to see ur bf rite?? ahahahaha she ah... guess i was smiling tooo much hahahahah.... but ... o well.. what has to b done ..has to be done...he has to stay yo finish up his stuffs...

anyway...after the buffet... i decided to hit the gym... just so that i can KO faster in bed...n tmr comes faster... so tat ... i can see him sooon...

oooooooooo and kenny G is coming to SINGAPORE!!! OOOOOOOOOOO an SHITES!! so expensive!! the ticks!! but ... neh .. i preferred the DVD or concerts or just the albums... y for go to the concert when u cant even see him... only hear him...heh...

gym todae??? fun!! coz i was standing at the left mirror!!! aaahahhahha far far far from rino ..yuck.... i was standing with jonathan...damien...diana...uncle alvin...alot alot alot more!! so fun!! next time ... ithink i stand there can liao... more fun....

i miss him i miss him i miss him i miss him i miss him i miss him i miss him i miss him i miss...

Lost

2005-11-30T21:20:00.000-08:00

Time Check: 1030am
Dae: Thursdae (01st Dec 2005)

The sky was so dark, it is as if, it is the end of the day is near...i am serious... i was that dark... there was a few beam of strong sun ray fighting their way through, but i guess they lost the battle when the storm brewed...

Here i am, staring once again... into the open, far into the horizon, lost....

Being attached to a person so much and suddenly he not being there anymore... that is the feeling of lost... totally lost... it is as if ur life is sucked out of you... no energy... no nothing... you are lifeless... you are drained... you are good-for-nothing...that is what i am feeling at this very moment...

I actually intend to meet grace and some gang for classes todae... for gym classes that is ..after buffet... that is what i wana to do.... get working ... and loss those extra "CHEESE CAKES and SINFUL CHOCOLATE" that i ate last nite...

but .... i cant help it... i feel... drained... no energy... and another thing is that i am sick... down with a flu and sore throat... must b my friend, who pass the virus to me... crap!!!

i miss him so much already....
i feel lost....

Lost without you...

Oooooo Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2005-11-24T10:58:00.000-08:00

I GOT IT!! i was happy like a BIRDDDDDDDDDDDDD when i got the green light from Liz...
yaaay!!! i will b on my own!!! SOOOON!!! yaaay!!!my 1st very own class... will b a cover for her... on the 7th Dec in the morn... well it aint really my own class.... coz i am covering for her when she is away... well.... not that happy that it aint my own class my own time slot... but.... still... it is ok..... better than nothing...

n i m the 1st!! so.... yaaay!!! coz jolene is still TT-ing....

as i am typing this....the sun is still playing hide n seek... but.... there is still occassional sun ray torching the pooolside... told my mom that i will b goin for a sun tan later...guess what she said???
normally she will say... "... aiyo...dun tan la.... accompany me here... u are tan already... no need to tan more..."

but ... todae she said " ... ok ... later i go tannin with u!!!!"

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW!!! she is amazing issnt she???
i haven really got someone to tan with me at all, coz i dun really go for tanning session... it is so boring!!!but it is ok... rather then i look like madam white snake ha.. i rather go for a boring tan...n she is my 1st partner.... she better allow me to bake in the sun for 3 hrs!!! hahahahahah
we shall see the weather....

o yes... yesterdae ... me and eva were on marathon...h ahahahahah.... as in gym marathon... but she is such an angel...
morn... she came to my Last TT... support me!! she has been supporting me for the longest time...she was there on my 1st TT and once again on my last TT.... n in bt...there are times where she came too!!!! anyway... after that ..... we went makan... at the new jap place at wisma...she treat....she said that i put in so much effort to teach and also ... i am a student... hahaha still no income... ahahaah and she is my da-jie hahhaha....

(Below): My da-jie EVA at the jap place... forgot the name of the resturant... there is another outlet at Suntec...the one with the cheesecake...

(below): me and my da-jie... ahahahahah the black vs the white!! hahahaha aka.. DEVIL vs ANGEL

after that... we walked over to Lido to check out what they have that fits our time slot....well i noe she wans to watch Harry Porter for the longest time...so we went to watch ... there are other choices...but ... its ok... the movie... is not bad... unlike what many said... mayb.... i haven read the book... n so... not so much of disappointment... hahaha we both enjoy the movie alot... then we walk back to cali...

o ya... it was until later... that i realised that they nv put in alot of impt stuffs inside... that is y those who read the boook aint happy with the movie... now i noe... it will b so much more interestin if those parts are in the movies... but i guesss if u put everything in ... it will b longer than ... LORD of the RIng man.... yew...

ROund 2~!!!!! *tink tink tink*
hahahah... combat at 520..actually we r plannin t go for the 410 combat... but... movie end late la...anyway... then after that ... pump... xtina pump...then box class.... i am damn sian at box classs.... new music... or rather... new boring music.... yawn....

i miss my guy so much...but he will b coming home soon...
in...28hrs ... willl seee him.... in 28hrs 01mins...i will hug him.... in 28hrs 02mins... i will kisss him...

simply simply misssss him....
so much... i think i am dying sooooon.....

28hrs......
i will b waiting....

aside to my darling: dear, i will bring u to a place to eat this.... (if u are interested...)

A sweet thot...

2005-11-21T14:20:00.000-08:00

As i was having my daily dosage of Straits Times's LIFE session.... this is one lovely article i stumbled upon... or rather... it is a whole full page of radio deejay - Brian Richmond. He is the dad of Deejay also, Mark Richmond and singer Don Richmond.

I am stating as what is printed off the ST.

"... after all, the veteran..deejay wears his heart - and his love for his wife Susanne - on the license plate of his car.

The plate reads SBR 1870 E and it stands for "Susanne and Brian Richmond" and the day they tie knot - Aug, 1, 19 70.

And the "E"?

' Oh, Everlasting!' declared Richmond. "

awwwwwwwwwwww come one.... aint that sweet....

another part....as followed.... hahaha i personally think ... it is funny hahaha....

" ... he said in his velvety baritone: 'Marriage is about giving and taking. I give, she takes. She gives - as in, she nags at me - and i take.' "

hahahaahha come on... aint they just a sweet couple... married for more than 30 years,... n still as loving as day 1....

well... that is all i have to blog for todae... so far... coz i am GOIN to they gym liao...
need to chg... else i sure late!!!!

Beach Dae!!!!

2005-11-20T23:23:00.000-08:00

TODAE!!!! not bad a dae.... coz... it is a BEACH DAE!!!~~~~~
i went back to SSB...a place where i belong....or rather...used to belong.... a place all so familiar to me.... (ok ok ..enuf of memories)....

reached there.... meet my kakis... 3 of them only..the rest... bz here n there...
anyway.... went in ...bout....11... the usual gang are there.... played the entire dae.... there is NO SUN!!!! AT ALL!!! except for alittle...here n thre.... when the sun FEELS like peeeping thru the HUGE FLUUUUUFFFFFFFT over crowding clouds....

there is this police guy..that keeps asking us to play game with him...4 on 4... i hate it sia!!!!! i love to play 2-2.... there is the kick... n u work out the most..... coz u run the entire court,,... anyway.. got to noe new friends....

o ya... it drizzled alittle...but...we being us... we are those hardcores that still play in the rain...whether THUNDER STORM or what so ever... we will b there... dun care !!! SERIOUSSSS...anyway...that polic guy... keep asking me for my name la... this la that la... friendster... WTH!!!! I SIAM from him super far!!!! n say... ahhahah...... u slowly go ask any of the guys la... they might help u... then i turn n walk away.... GOSHHHHHHHHHHH

anyway.... we decided to leave the place early.... coz they noe that i hate crowds....either leave super early like at ...6... like what they usually do... or like me.... 8pm to avoid crowds.... n we went over to BREEKS to eat... WELLLL thee 2 guys are like gals lo!!! dunno wher to eat... then keep asking me where to eat... wah liew...then at that time.. i am so hot.... EMITTIN HEAT... i was like....aiyooo anywhere with aircon... then i lazy to go all the way to the food court on the 4th storey...that is y i choose to eat at BREEKS located at 1st storey...

anyway... on th way in ... there is a XMAS TREE... i LOVE TO HAVE!!!! chk it out....
o ya... in the in the beach.... my other DB gang is there too!!! there is LEK, Guan Hong, Kevin and Cowen!! ahahah all of them there... thot they should b at kallang cheering or training up the Jrs ahhahahaha...but they cae all the way from one side of the beach to over my side!! just to see me... n say hi.... aint they sweet...ahahahah

(below) : the TREE i love this year!!!!!!!!

(below) : NOW U NOE Y I like this tree???? LOOOK properly!!!!! hint.... hint.... EDIBLE....

(below) : While waiting for food....took pic with 1 of the 3 JAs ahhahah.... JAckson n me!!!! he is my partner in games....

(below) : The 3 JAs... JAson , JAcelyn and JAckson.... hahahaha... JAson.. he is my setter... the rest have gone home lo... or meet their dates or whatsoever.... ya.....

( below) : the candle on our table.... CRAP.... romantic place... bUT WITH WRONG PPL... hmph...wasted....

( below) : oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo... hungry???? this is BAke rice with Chicken.... n this is what ... JAckson ordered... we decided to share ... coz ... i didnt wana eat .... but WAS FORCE to ..... sigh.....

( below) : FISH n Chip.... HUGE serving......

( below) : i am bored..... hahahahah OK OK ... u see my BLUSHED face???!!!! i am burnt... slightly hahahahaha...GOSH!! I AM SLIGHTLY BURNT!!! in this kinda weather??!!! wassup with me man!!!! ahhaahahahah BUT GOOD!!! FREE BLUSHER!! i am too dark for ANY blusher... EXCEPT for this ... it never fails to serve me rite!!!!

I am dead bored here.... it may b a fun dae todae... made so many new friends....chat up with long lost friends.... mingled around here n everywhere.... miss that place ... miss the ppl... miss the smell... miss the music... miss everything.... but... i still miss my guy the most.... miss him so very very much!!! very very!! when will he b back???!! when????

urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh it is such a long wait....

so so LONGGGGGGGGGGG.........

5 more daes.....have u got any idea HOW LONG 5 daes is??!!! it is HOW MANY HRS??!!! it is HOW MANY MINS???!!! urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is killing me !! SLOWWWWWWWW... worst than muggin for accounts....

The Voice

2005-11-18T00:45:00.000-08:00

He called.... we talked....
I HEAR HIS VOICE!!!

a very very very tired voice...
guess... i really made him losss sleep....

but ... i hear his voice....

i can sleep tonite.....

Stick With Me

2005-11-17T14:05:00.000-08:00

This song surface after i blogged my earlier entry...
i guess.... it meant a lot to me.... coz those are the words i wan to tell my guy...

Artist: Pussycat Dolls
Title: Stickwitu

Ohhh.. Oh Oh..

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better, Imma stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, Imma stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, Imma stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, Imma stick wit u

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride, in our private lives
Ain't nobody gettin' in between
I want you to know that, you're the only one for me (one for me)
(What I'm sayin' is)

Nobody gonna love me better, Imma stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, Imma stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, Imma stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, Imma stick wit u

And now, ain't nothing else I can need
And now, I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you, we'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you (baby I'm with you)
Baby you're with me (baby you're with me,oh yah)

So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me

And that's all that counts
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's, that's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better, Imma stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, Imma stick wit u (come on)
You know how to appreciate me, Imma stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, Imma stick wit u
Nobody gonna love me better, Imma stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, Imma stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, Imma stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, Imma stick wit u

Fused Fuse

2005-11-17T12:17:00.000-08:00

I guess i lost it all!! it is pure madness...
I think i am the demanding party... compared to my guy...

Well, one thing is that he is far away... in FAR FAR FAR away KINGDOM...
the other... he has such tight scedules to follow i guess...
i am actually upset sometimes... that he is constantly away... but ... i can comprimise... i raelly can ... it is just one small thing ... that i guess.... i cant really handle... well enough yet...
the calls...
see... see how demanding i can b??? i suck sometimes...

every nite i look forward to his call... so that i can hear his voice... that is the few minutes that decide on how the dae should turn out to b... most of the times... it is fabulous... most of the times... it just make my horrible daes so much better....

but... there are nites... whereby... he called... n i just think that he aint listening to what i am saying... he called.... but... he is bz in the background...either typing away... debugging... or colleuges talkin to him... or something... he seemed distracted.... i dunno... but... it is just a few minutes a dae... n yet... he is still bz at work....
there are times... i feel like i am talkin to..nothing.... talkin to myself... relating what happen in the dae to myself... after that ... well... i got tired... so i decided to just make conversation short.. n forget it all... he is just too bz...it is a horrible feeeling...see.... i demand full attention!!! sia!!!! AS IF... he is that freee to hear me bitch bout what i have to say .... sigh....

sigh.... guess.... after the call 2 nites back... i just "piak".... fuse FUSED... watever....
i had so much to tell him.... but.... guess he is too bz... so i mught as well.. tell it to myself...

last nite... i was dead tired... in the train... seriously in the entire 1hr trip i was thinkin bout him... i was so hungry... the entire dae ... i have yet to eat... nothing at all... came home... ate some stuffs... n KO in bed... toooo DEAD to even move....

woke up at dunno what time... replied some smses... n back to bed... i guess there is this sms that i fell alsp again without completin the sms...coz in the morn .. i woke up with the hp in my hand... heh....

but i read a sms from my guy... n i have no idea ...what i wrote... seriously.... my brain was hibernating... my hands are sleeeping....shite... hope i didnt screw things up....

i feel crap this morn...after seeing 3 miss calls frm my guy last nite....
i haven talk to him last nite... it feels weird... very....
sigh....

i dunno him... but ... i will see him... at arrival hall...soooon....
very .... in .... 7 daes time....
seems like eternity to me....

Listen...

2005-11-16T00:43:00.000-08:00

How long ago have i really sit down... listen n truely to songs these daes??? i realise... not very often...
the songs these daes... not many are worth me sittin there to really listen to the lyrics....
all the rubbish they are singing these daes....
if u were to sit down ... just flip thru songs that u used to play n never play them anymore.... listen to them... the older tracks... the retro track... they are the genuine tracks...
they have sightly more meaning then the RA RA RA songs u get these daes....

my brother was just uploading the songs he used to had, n he stumbled upon this track....

Laura and Tommy were lovers.
He wanted to give her everything.
Flowers, presents and most of all a wedding ring.
He saw a sign for a stock car race,
a thousand dollar price it read.
He couldn't get Laura on the phone,
so to her mother Tommy said:

Tell Laura I love her,
tell Laura I need her.
Tell Laura I may be late,
I have something to do
that cannot wait.

He drove his car to the racing ground,
he was the youngest driver there.
The crowd roared as they started the race,
from the track they drove at a deadly pace.
No one knows what happened that day,
how his car turned in flames.
But as they pulled him from the twisted wreck,
with his dying breath they heard him say:

Tell Laura I love her,
tell Laura I need her.
Tell Laura not to cry,
my love for her will never die.
Now in the chapel where Laura prays,
for her Tommy who passed away.
It was just for Laura he lived and died,
alone in the chapel she could her him cry:
Tell Laura I love her,
tell Laura I need her.
Tell Laura not to cry,
my love for her will never die.
Tell Laura I love her,
tell Laura I need her.
Tell Laura not to cry,
my love for her will never die.

tell me... are u touch??? or are u touch??? i noe i am... if u were to picture that entire scenario... how can u not feel a thing...
can u image... if u were in the gal's shoe.... hey.... dun tell me u are not sad...
U ARE INHUMANE!!!!
hmph ....

7 more daes.... n counting....
to the dae i embrace happiness again....

7 daes and counting....

Does love really changes EVERYTHING?

2005-11-12T15:56:00.000-08:00

Title :Love Changes Everything
Artist: Climie Fisher
Currently playing in my "TEEWEE"....

I was only seventeen when she looked at me that way
Seems like yesterday
I was only foolin' 'round but she stole my heart away
I've never been the same
I felt the strangest feeling like a raging fire it burned
She left I cried for weeks and
I can't forget her or the lesson that I learned

Love changes, changes everything
Love makes you fly it can break your wings
Love changes, changes everything
Love makes the rules from fools to kings
Love changes, love changes everything

Then the years went rollin' by
I grew up and moved away
Had to earn my pay
Found another lover then
But my heart is sad to say
It only ended up the same way
And I wondered was I destined to spend my life alone
Oh girl you answered my question
This time it's working you've given me new hope

Love changes, changes everything
Love makes you fly it can break your wings
Love changes, changes everything
Love makes the rules from fools to kings
Love changes, love changes everything
I've seen the way love shakes ya makes ya breaks ya
It's got a power of it's own
Love changes, changes everything
Love makes you fly it can break your wings
Love changes, changes everything
Love makes the rules from fools to kings
Love changes, love changes everything

Apparently... i think that time passes too slowly this time round...
it has been long since i last saw him... it has been....very very very long...
another...12 more daes.... 12 more... i am counting...

Disappointment... totally....

2005-11-11T15:59:00.000-08:00

I M ...UTTERLY..TOTALLY..VERY VERY VERY disappointed in myself...totally.... out-of-this-world disappointed...guess christ must have also be as disappointed... i really really really screwed things up bad this time at pump TT.... very very bad....

i should not have used the tracks that i am not sure of... BUT ... i thot ...trying is of no harm!! n i am SO BLARDY wrong!!!!! i am naive!! darn stupid!!! no one is more stupid than me to kill myself with the tracks that i am not familiar with!!! how brainless can one b??? thinking that i am daring enough t try out something that i am not sure of....

The impression that i give to Christ has been not bad... she keeps saying that i have the potiential... it is so pressuring.... but.... i have prove it to her.... some time back... but todae??? I SCREWED UP!!! big time....

after the class... my face felll... literally...i aint smiling anymore!!! no more.... it is almost immediately!!! wat fucking impression i leave for those newbies???? DAMN!!!!!

well.... i am disappointed n totally upset over my own performance...u can imagine ... how christ feels..... sigh....she was saying... she expect me to take my own class... in 3 more sessions...
sigh..... i am so looking forward to that.... BUT !!! LOOK AT WHAT SHITE I HAVE DONE!!! I RUINED IT ALL!!! EVERYTHING!!!! all my hardwork!!!!

now i have to wait .... n see .... what tracks i am doin with deb... this time i better PERFECT everything... n i MEAN EVERYTHING....from Pre-cue... all the way to cheo to CRC.... it is my last chance to prove!!!! i have to.... i must... n i will!!!!

sigh... i still can belief wat a FOOL i m....

tonite... i willl dun care... i dun care if it is my last $20 in the wallet... i will go for keith's class... n bash my soul out!!!! n make sure i leave that place with my arms hanging on the ground from my shoulders and his hands??? sore from the impact...

wat an arse i am....
URGH...... un believable ARSE....

moody quizzessssss

2005-11-09T00:11:00.000-08:00

i am pure moody.....
very veyr...
dunno why.... but just m...

no no not PMS....
hahha

n so i decided to do some brainless.... questionaires

What City Do You Belong In?

You Belong in London

A little old fashioned, and a little modern. A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock.A unique woman like you needs a city that offers everything.No wonder you and London will get along so well.

What Style of Jeans Are You?

No Pocket Jeans

You are confident and completely comfortable with your body.You don't mind showing off - in fact, you put it all out there!

Are You Uptown or Downtown?

You Are Midtown

You love so many things, you don't fit into any one label.Your city girl persona goes to a fancy restaurant one night and a dive bar the next.

Are You a Good Girlfriend?

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtfulBut you also haven't stopped thinking of yourselfYou're the perfect blend of independent and caringYou're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

You are Dark Chocolate

You live your life with intensity, always going full force.You push yourself (and others) to the limit... you want more than you can handle.An extreme person, you challenge and inspire the world!

How Well Do You Understand Men?

You Are a Good Student of Men

You're pretty good at knowing what men are thinkingBut you're not dead on 100% of the timeLet your guy off the hook sometimes... because you may be reading him all wrong!

Are You a Diva?

You're Part Diva

You know that a girl's gotta work it to get her way in the world.And while you aren't about to throw a tantrum at every turn...You do amp up the drama when you know you need it.You mix charm, honesty, and kindness to get ahead.

Missing out...

2005-11-06T16:02:00.000-08:00

it has been sometime since i last blog... n nope... not that he is back... it is just that... neh... not in the mood to blog... exams, gym, home... there are so much stuffs.... i haven have any time or rather... any mood to really go out n hang out with friends, to either sit and chat, watch movie or any sort of entertaining...

n blardy arse.... we need to buy more CDs for pump... n a new outfit!!!! aiyoooooooooooooooooooooo i am so balrdy broke... n the new release is coming out sooon!! n ... i ned to go get more bottoms... more 3/4 n more shorts.... i can survive on that 2 that i had....sigh....

guess my sort of entertainment nowadaes... is gym.... goin for classes n enjoying the combat classes... by screaming like noone's biz... haah like what we did yesterdae... at colin's class....
me, demas, joey, kenny, damian, robin... too bad ... eva n diana aint there !! hahaha but we really scream shout let it all out!!! AHHAHAHAH like bunch of mad ppl sia!!!!!
guess we will b there to stay for more sats to come man!!! ahahha that CRAZY LOUD gang!! hhahaha

Tmr will b my last dae of exam... yes yes!!! at last!! i am so happy..then it will b holidae alll the way... n yes i manage to swop my BEC classes from dec to nov with my goodie good friend... tim!! yes yes!! he is such an angel!!! anyway...if i am swopping means... i will b taking the BEC classes sooon!!!! that will b good! means i can go over to london earlier!! yipppie!! ahhahahaha
get over and done with the test!!!

n o ya... this coming tues... i have a photo shoot at Taka...from 3pm to 8... geeesh.... that is so.... sian.... i wont get paid that is one... watever la.... anyway that is tues...not really interested...but since i am free... so.... else... i would find more stuffs to do on tues....

hmmmmm leme seee when can i hit the beach soon!! i need the beach... i need to listen to the waves crashing... i need to feel the sand at my feet again... i need to feel the wind in my face .... i need to feel th sun pierce my skin all over again... i just need to b by the beach,.. doesnt matter the volleyball or wat so ever...

these days... i am either gymming or at home... nowhere else...
no life...
it is once again... a sun.... i am at home... i dun care how the sun id playing and enjoying itself outside... i now i am not...

i just....

miss him bad.... that is all...

FAstest way to die

2005-11-02T11:02:00.000-08:00

SIgh... exam is in .... 3 hrs... but i am just starting to read the notes... sigh... i really really really dunno what is happening to me... i just lost interest... really really!! i n studies??? hahaha

crap....
lets seee how i die....

i think ... that 2 hr paper...

i will do the 1st 15mins... then the rest i will b trying my best to dig a grave with my pens.... hmmm i think that will work...
end of the session i can bury myself inside....

faster that way...

Black n White

2005-11-01T21:49:00.000-08:00

I AM OFFICIALLY BLACK n WHITE!!! Well … black or rather tan on my face n front… n white on my back!! #%&^&*#% pissed!!! Well … here is how my BLACK n WHITE story came about…

Early morning, went cali for team teaching with Deb. The class is FULL !!! totally!!! There is no weights left for us!!! There is only a few bars left… and … so… I have to go up n down to the 2nd studio to get weights for me and debs… the class … well a lot of them are my friends… they are the faces where u will never fail to see in the evening or at PH.

I must really thank them!! Thank them all… there is Eva!!! My da-jie!! She supports me a lot!! She is constantly trying to rearrange her schedules so that she can come for my classes… I am really really touch!! Out of 4 classes I have… she came for 2… what else more can I ask for from a friend.. a good friend?? THANK YOU DA –JIE!!

There is also Chris, who woke out of bed SUPER early…so that he can go for combat b4 that …so that he can get a good spot rite in front of me to support me!!! He slept … PRETTY late last night!! Thanks dude!!

There is also Darren Mai… he came for my class… so that he can leme his NANO… he is the guy I train with every Thursday… he came to see how I fair in class… he hate crowds… but… he came!! Thank you so much!! Thanks for the nano too!!!

There is also Auntie Pauline! She is my 52 year old momy!! Hahaha her daughter is even older than me…. She woke up EXTRA early just to come over to my class… last nite …she went party … but she still insist on waking up early … her husband was asking her to sleep later…but she insist on coming… Awwwwwwwwwww she is suck a sweetheart… thank you momy!!!!

Then there is Jeremy!! Hahha he is so surprise to see me on stage ahahhaha…. There are also so many many many of them …. Thank you!! Thank you!!

I did 3 tracks … back… triceps and biceps… n I tell u … the 1st back track … I m quite satisfied with it… but of coz… I could have done better… then come the tricep track!! I AM PISSED!! TOTALLY!!! The mic SCREWED UP~~~~ TOTALLY!!! When I lie down on the board… the echo was tooo loud… I cant hear the music… the mic went dead after that… I end up screamin!!! I did my ¾ of the triceps sitting up!! DARN!!! Well the only ¼ of the track was the last part… the DIPS… sigh…

Then after that BLARDY SHITE… I did bicep… my best track… n I m the one who made that track famous… I am known as DIVA for biceps during training!! Ahhaha CAR WASH!!! Hahaha yea…. That is that…. But … I forgot to tell the class some impt stuffs… all thanks to that MIC!! Urgh…. Made me stress out so much!!!! PUI!!!!

Then after that … I chg… got out… then straight to the beach…. For a slight tan… n meet up some friends… wooow … it has been long since I last been there… the sun was FANTASTIC I must say!! It is HOT HOT HOT there!! Oooooo!! I got tan yes… after …. 2 hrs…. I GOT TAN IN FRONT .. ONLY!!! I was bz PR-ing with all my friends there… there are so many groups… I talk here talk there… n REALISE at the end of the dae they are mostly having their back facin the sun!! n me??? Of coz my face , facing the sun!! wat an idiot I am!!!! URGHHHHHHHHHHH

it is nice to see so many of them there.... alfred, steven hahaha that uncle!! hahah he is mister PLEASE DRINK H2O hahahah... raymond is there tooo... muay thai expert...edwin... that guy who can spike the ball n break ur wrist if u tr to block!! hahahaha n andy boi, andy sq, james... so many many more!! wooow!!! i never call them lo!! they are just there!!!!! hahahha they never chg much... still ... the same...BEACH BUMS!!! hahahahah....miss them all!!!!

So it means that I have a tan front .,… n a white back!! Shites!!! Nvm … I will see what I can do then… sigh… I look… MAD… yuck!!!!

Well… not that I look alien… I m getting paranoid!!! Sigh….

I miss my boy so much!!! So so so so so so much….

Sigh… he is sick again… I really really hope he will take care of himself…
It is a heartache I am feeling here….

I M SEEEING RED!!!

2005-10-29T04:02:00.000-07:00

isit me??? or isit PMS???
Fish cake noodle!!! SHARKS FIN SOUP!!! urghhhhhhhhhhhhh
the SUN IS SO HANGING out n playing the WHOLE DAE!!! n i mean the WHOLE DAE!! n yet!! i am stuck at homE!!! i cant get out!!!! out only to run errands!!!! URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

feeling like shite already.... i drew the curtains... and on the aircon..trying to shut the sun out... lying to myself that it is raining out there!! but... .my EVER-SO-CUTE mom keep UPDATING ME on the weather!! the sun is very bright leh!! The sun aiyoo!! SO HOT!!!
i wana hammer her ah!!!!!

then i can hear kids playing n splashing at the pool... n here i am??? EVOLVING into SNOW WHITE!!! my NIGHTMARE!!!!

I DUN CARE!!! i will be by the pool side tmr... b4 heading over to the gym for team teaching session.. n after that ... i will b back at the poolside again... n tues... also ... i will b heading to the beach... after team teach ... n thur... i will head to the beach again!! volleyball!!! i must make sure i get my title back!! i must get my tan back!! i must get my REPUTATION BACK!! n get rid of that EVIL SNOW WHITE!!!!

yewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

I AM SO PISSSED NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!
it is 4pm now!! N THE SUN IS STILL HANGING OUT!! CHILLING!!! URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! i am so angry!!! y cant the sun get any better when i am not the MAID todae..... sia!!!!

The sun must be Smiling SLYLY at me ... i can feel its eyes on me... n hat evil smile...

HMPH!!!!
* pHOOOOOOOOOt*

Wacko Week!!

2005-10-29T01:09:00.000-07:00

hmmm lets see.... where should i start... well...todae team teach was ok... need to improve more more more ... i must perfect myself!! b4 i go on holis.... push more push more!!! work harder!! like todae... my tracks... squats and chest... squats was ok... by the end of the class i am POURING SWEAT ALL OVER THE FLOOR MAN!! it is like ... pacific ocean has broke the barriers!!! ahhahah

during my chest track... i guess i worked tooooooooo much on my chest yesterdae while training... i got cramps!! super bad ones... on my left bicep area!!! DARN!!! that is soooooooo EMBARRASSIN!! can u imagine??? u are in a class...then u are doing the bicep track... there u are ...sweating n pumping ur biceps... then suddenly u see the instructor CRAMP!!! at the biceps!! WAH LIEW!!! paiseh eh me!!!! sia!!!

BUT!!! LUCKILY i forced my arms to Work n push 4 the last 3 reps!! PHEW!!! i am lucky it is the last 3 man!! else i sure die!!! at least ... during the pushup ... nothing happen... else... ireally QUIT MAN!!! FWAH!!!!!

anyway... i was at my ex-collegues' bbq cum chalet @ Aloha on wed nite... well... me n mus met b4 heading off together...all of them looks pretty much the same...not much changes... new team mates... my teamleader... eh... put on weight aahahah guess must b having bf that feed her so much she put on weight... heh... lovey dovey!! ahhahaha

then mus decides to STUN everyone!! well i noe what he is gona do.. .so i was in the chalet room with him,.. helping him out....

(below): a picture b4 the "SPECIAL EVENT" (florabelle with Mus)

(below): a picture after the "SPECIAL EVENT"

(below): indeed!! a true tall beauty!

(below) : Come on!! he is such a babe!! i... m truely the gal next door!! SIA!!!! loss face!!! but ... he is my good frien!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH FAINT?!!!!! he is a BEAUTY i tell u!!!! woooot!!!! 3 cheers to u my darling MUS!!! muack!! hahha

N o no!!!! my true self!!! O NOOOOOOOOOOOOO darn!!! my horns!!! alll along it was hid pretty well.... todae!! todae!! it is out!!!
urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh cali is celebrating HALLOWEN on thurs... that is why my horns must make its APPEARANCE FELT!!! sigh..... ok ok ... will trim it tonite... like HELLBOY!!! hahaha TRIM it off....

o yes.... i am so bored these daes.... i am just eating eating n eating...eating junk that is!! WAT DO U THIK???!! eat proper meals??? hahah fat hope.... they are too NON-FATTENING for me!! AHHAAHAHHAH (like real)

there is this new gummy that i totally adore now!!!!

n yes.... CHECK OUT WHAT is on the wrapper!!! a few of my FAVOURITE WORDS!!!!
1) AWESOMELY SOUR ( the words in the green blop) - i love love SUPER SOUR stuffs too!!
2) NATURALLY JELLY (the words in yellow) - it is GUMMY!!! so i like!!! hahah
3) 99% FAT FREE!!!!! ( the words in blue) - THIS ONE!!! SUPER DUPER IMPORTANT!!

but of coz.... if i eat toooo much of it!! i will stillll get fat!! n so..defeat the purpose rite??!!!
BUT!! AT LEAST !! I EAT...with SLIGHTLY LESSER GUILT! hahahaahahahhahah... as for now??? rest my arm.... i ned a massage!!! BAD!!! sigh.....

n for now??? upload more stuffs into my mini teewee!! YIPPPIE!!!!
more pictures of him... more songs that remind me bout him... n more him!! yay!!
coz i ... simply .... cant live without him...

Mesmerised...i am...

2005-10-28T00:30:00.000-07:00

At this very moment... just when everyone is bz with their stuffs... just when i am bored to tears...
there is notthing to do... everyone is bz online... everyone is bz with their life... i am stoning...
just then... i decided to slip this particular disc into my lappie...

The song... a very familiar ... song... the moment the music came on... i just stared at my screen... my wallpaper ... n stoned.... memories ... sweet memories... memories of the times we were at KTV.. .i think it should b the 1st 2 times we went to KTV... it is the song being introduced by him... a song... bout... yes ... a good man!!! how a man can chg so much to suit being with the one he love...

it is the song where he and his best pals all like , for a period of time...

a song that i can feel him sing when i play this track...
i just miss it all! miss everything...
miss him the most..

the track... somehow ... is on a repeat mode... hmmmmmm
it had been so long... n it is not even nov!!!!
it will b...goin to be a long long long... wait...

n that song... with such power???
A language that i cant relate well... a language that i was being reintroduced to all over again...

Alan Tham - Pi Zer Yang Pi De Lang

Fat!

2005-10-27T10:31:00.000-07:00

I cant belief it... i put on weight... i lost 2-3kg...but i gained back 1kg already!! URGHHHHHHHHH now it is no wonder ... m fat... sia....
o welll..... watever.... i am stilll however a gal... hahah n ladies are never ever satisfy with how they weigh or loook..welll hahhah....

anyway... went for office's bbq last nite... my ex collegues... hahhha many never chg... still the same.... well.. .will upload some INTERESTING pictures soon... hahahah.... it willl...or might blow everyone's mind off....
i was pondering whether to stay for pump and box last nite n give the bbq cum chalet a miss.. but ... at the end of the dae... i still went... coz i do not wan to see disappointment in their faces ... n moreover... i made a promise to b there... so i am there....

lets seee... what other interesting stufs... ehhh next week i will b team teaching on a public holidae... woow... deb warned me... but i took up the challenge hahhaha ... dun care la.... the more the ppl the better... then i will be able to train my guts.... hahhaha....

welll that is that... now gota concentrate for tmr's TT with christina!! wooow.... she is 1 of the instructor i favour most!! hahahah DOH!!! well... now i have to make sure that i perfect everything... else i cant progress...

Dec seemed far... n long.... sigh... y cant it comes slightly faster?? it seemed to take forever...
hmm... mayb try not thinking might help it comes faster...
lets try....

hmmmm..........

uh......................
ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

no leh!!! i am still stuck in OCT!!! sigh...
then next week...after exam.... what m i gona do????

aiyooo ok ok ... i shall teach everydae!!!
hhahhaah!!!! Then time might pass faster!!! YAAAAAY!!!!

He is not feeling well again....
sigh.... he is so far.... more than millions of miles away...
all alone...
I really really hope he will take care of himself....
he always say he will...
i just hope he really will...

*heartache*

Mindless...

2005-10-25T17:30:00.000-07:00

The song that i have been hearing quite abit ... these daes...
rainy season....

Real World by D-Side

Last night I dreamt you were lying beside me
I smell the sweetness of your hair
You gently reached out to remind me
Of how it used to be
And I almost believed that this morning I’d find you still here
But here in the real world
I miss you madly in the real world
I’m coping badly with losing you
What am I to do? Here in the real world
Without you
Last night I dreamt of a different ending
Everything just seemed to work out, somehow
I saw that someday I could smile again
Without pretending
I was so sure I would wake up, and I wouldn’t need you right now
But here, here in the real world
I miss you madly in the real world
I’m coping badly with losing you
What am I to do? Here in the real world
Without you
Friends tell me I must no longer look back,
Where sooner or else just head on the track
And my stars says that I’m getting over the fact that your gone
But here, here in the real world
I miss you madly in the real world
I’m coping badly with losing you
What am I to do? Here in the real world
Without you
Here in the real world
I am lost without you

Tired...

2005-10-25T15:24:00.000-07:00

Im so ... here there and everywhere ...but nowhere in exact....
confusin??? well... yes i am...

sigh....

exams round the corner... in a week's time to b exact...but i have yet to study anything much actually... i am just not in the moood... not in the roll... not in anything to study... mom demand tooo much of my attention when i am home...

i can never ever study when i am outside...i cant concentrate... not a single bit... unless my grp of study mates are serious hardcore ppl... but i have yet to find any study mates actually.... or any condusive place to study ... yet!!!! but when i am out these daes... i will only b in the gym... n nowhere else... hardly will i b with friends....i dun have the energy to do anything...

gym??? hmmmmm that is another place with as equal stress.... sigh... box class n pump... sigh... whatever that is ... guess it is very much sorted out... but... still ... it can be disturbing ...

o yes yes... i can hear my mom calling me again...i am just away from her... like what??? since the start of this entry ... 5mins??!!!! urgh....
early morn... she will call my mobile to wake me up.... then make sure i do her morn therapy.... 2 hrs... by then... 11 plus... 12... then prepare her lunch.... just when i thot i can study... she is done with lunch... so i clear stuffs up... then she wana do her afternoon excercise... from 1 to... 3... then .... guess what??? after that ... i need to bathe her.... URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i ask u ... just when i am at the freshest in the morn to study!! what m i doin???

seriously!! i have no mood to study at all....just when info are getting into my head... i get to do other stufs.... i just ... aint getting anything rite.... i jsut feel like failing everything... sian....
exams that is ... hahahah

i wanted very much to get a tan while i study by the pool todae, at least i will relax alittle... but.... yea yea... my mom... restriction... n ... also.. when i say i wana tan by the pool... the sky suddenly seem to darken... n .... I HEAR THUNDER!!!! o crap!!!!

then there is the gym.... well... ned to start memorising the tracks n the moves for this fri class... morn class... that boring class... wif all the tai-tais and caucasians... hmmm.... well... i have to try my best to perfect this class already... it is my 2nd class... i ned to perfect them NOW!!! i ned to give the rite Que... i need to make sure my timing is rite... i must make sure that i give the rite safety ques... make sure there is eye contacts bt me and the class... oooooooooooooooooooooooooo... n there is Miss Perfect-Christina next to me... phew....

n the next class is at ... sun with waihan... n then .. .mon nite with Liz... n guess what??? my econs paper is n wed... n my next class is fr 520 with waihan again.... n that dae ... i have accounts paper to 130pm!!!! URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Hmmmm..... it is raining... storming out there... the wind is howling.....
my windows are open... i am staring out...
i dont care if i am wet... i just like that feeling...
the feeling of cold wind trapped beneath my hair...
the feeling of the light rain drops hitting gently on my face...
memories of him...n me... the happy memories.... slipped into my head....
i am just smiling like an idiot....
but.... i do miss him... alot alot alot... more than words can describe....

n....i decide to prepare dinner....

Beaten...but not NOT defeated!!

2005-10-22T22:30:00.000-07:00

Lets see... it has been couple of daes since i last blog.. hahah seems long!!! to me that is... well lets see... todae??? i am tired!!! totally!!! ok ok i am involved in the opening of the Bugis club... i am there... since 12.. rehearsing for combat tracks... hahaha n y combat?? hmmmm

u see...Deborah called me... then Mike T called me... fri nite... asking me if im free... then asked me to go over... well... OEI! 2 big shots calling a small fry for help!! what can i say??? ehhh sorri ah...bz...then i go orchard n workout issit?!?! wana die ah!!!????

well anyway... we are doin demos at bugis... @ the grand entrance( inside the club) and at the JC Boxing ring at the ground floor... hahaha well... we are suppose to b doin combat in the ring ... in the glass room... then everyone who is walking by will start staring at us lo!!! hahahahah gooosh!! and we need to memorise k!!! no one to follow!!! coz we are facing all 4 corners.... n it is a glass room rem??!! yea.... anyway!! it was last min n we have to do 3 times... well luckily it is 1 track only!!! then we keep repeating that 1 track!! else!!! i will die!!!

well...then after all the demo... neh...cant b bothered to wait for Jackie chan to come by...i left... went for christina's PUMP n COMBAT hahaha it is all fun YEA YEA!!! the gang is there!! we have the left right center stereo!! HAHAHA Eva - Left, Diana - Right, Me and Karen - Center!!! hahahaha so fun!! track 2 and i am like sweating the Yellow River... end of the class... Pacific ocean!!

i am actually dead tired already...from the morn combat... from the heavy weights at pump and from yesterdaes' box class... i am sore!! but.... nvm ... the gals wana stay and do colin combat... well ok ok i stay... well i am NOT doin ABT!! coz i cant even lift my leg already... sore!! sigh... but i like the feeling of soreness... no i am not crazy!! it just shows that i m really working out!!

Diana and chris were bz working out at the stations... me?? hahah stoning... well after alittle bit of abs ( well cant do much, as i have stomachache!!!) ... i went around sitting on the floor ...stoning...i am very very very tired actually...i am very sleepy also... my friends were all saying that i have panda eyes....

true true... i have not reallly sleep well these nites... sigh...i am tired!! i am so tired that i dun feel like taking train back man!!! hahaha ...but i still did!!! with me staring at my small teewee 99% of the time... i miss him... bad...

o yes back in the gym... some of my friends saw me... they were shocked!! coz they have never see me so tired in the gym b4!!! i can b doin 6 classes!! yet i do not look like that!! ahahhahaahah well ... guess i have my limits too!! AHHAHAHA my body that is... but!! HELL TO IT!! i went to colin's combat!! ahhaha n yes!! another "RAIN POURING" session!! well hahah me, Diana, eva n kenny!! YES YES !! we are the loudest in the CLASSSS!!! colin was like!!! WOOW!!! LEFT SPEAKER !! LOUD!!! hahahhaha

well i was dead dead tired!! Totally drained at the 2 track already! but... nevermind...i can means i can... i cont hahah... at last finish hahah.. .HAPPY!!! happy shouting too!! LOSing my voice sia!! sexy!!! hahaha

n yes... suppose to go Marchie with Karen, Angie, Doshi, Di and Christina... but ... i am tooo tired... i also ... do not want to waste $$$ on all these stuffs... rather save them.... so turn them down... come home....

i m hungry and therefore... went 7-11 to get my fave!!! HAHAHAH GUMMY!!!

it is from "eFruit" and it is FAT FREE!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhh i like!! anything that is super sour!! that is soft GUMMY!! that is FAT FREE (this very impt)!! i like!!! yum yum... chew chew... chomp chomp!!!

now...i am eating!! OOOOOoooooo i am hungry... hmmm what else to eat???

I AM FAT!! OBESE!!

2005-10-20T21:50:00.000-07:00

GOSH!!!! issit true that once u had a nightmare... u said it out and it wont come true???!!!!
tell me it is true!!! then i might as well blogged it here!!! it is one of the scariest nightmare i ever had!! SERIOUS!!!! gosh!!! *pant*

Well... u see... i was very tired ...after returning from the airport...n yes... once again... there goes my angel... anyway... shant go to that topic... it will keep me stuck there for another lifetime... anyway...i am suppose to hit the gym for my training but... i am too tired... and drained... from ... eh... hahah watever... and i just feel tired that is al... and therefore i skipped my training sessions... i went home and accompany my mom... yes yes i should b studyin ... but no mood...sigh...well... then i feel asleep watching my fav "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory" with my mom... n ... it was the longest 1 hr ever!!!!

i dreamt that i was fat!! VERY VERY VERY FAT!!! literally overweight!! OBESE is the word!! HUGE!!!! i was stuffing my face with food!! GOD KNOWS what kinda food.. there is cakes, pasta, chocolate, ice cream... an i dunno what!! it is like... as if i am a sumo wrestler!! the amount of food!! FIT and enough to feed and supply for Raffles Hotel International Buffet spread for over the 2 weekends!!! GOD!!! do u have any idea how much that is!!!!

i looked like that "White" from the movie "Dodgeball". He transformed from a fitness guru to a fat slob... a very very very fat slob...and i looked exactly the same!!! like that very very very fat slob!!! it is not that i am a fitness guru now... just that i looked like the fat guy....

i rem that i stepped on the weighing scale... tipping the scale to a hefty ... i dunno what the weigh was!! i didnt have the guts to see how much i weigh.... GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i am afraid!! I DO NO WAN TO WEIGH that number!! it is OBSCENE!!! I DO NOT WANT TO LOOK like that SLOB!! it is ... NOT RIGHT!!!!

yewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

after saying these.... m i cleared??!! or do i need to tell someone in the face of what dreams i have to clear it up??? to break the curse??? to break the spell??? ehhhhh does it??!!!

oooooooooooooo... i know it sucked!!! but.... i hate to b doin this... but i am eating chocolate as i am writing this!! AHHAHAAH...

darn.... i feel crap!! i miss u my dear!!!!! the chocolate.... eh... helps alittle!! just a teeny weeny bit!!! sigh....

what m i feeling now??
i feel like i am a flower, withering when my sun is gone...
i feel like i am a beach, without the waves...
i feel like i am the clear night, without stars sparkling...
i feel like i am a hi-fi, without speakers...
i feel... empty....

incomplete...

I MISS YOU tons, my DEAR!!!

i need a great huge workout!!!

desperately.....

life after death...

2005-10-18T23:10:00.000-07:00

Till death do us part...

i like!!! y??? coz .... there is johnny deep!! well i am not a fan... not a stalker that is ... but.. .he is a good actor ...and tim burton??? he is a great director!!! Thumbs up!!
a very short film...but ... entertaining!! hahaha... a good show to watch!! but ... it is 76mins... short....
o ya .... it is a full house film... except that the entire threathe is filled with kids!!!! they are on holis ... crap!! ahhaha

o well.... whatever it is .... i enjoy it !!! coz it is with my guy!!! so ... anything is good!!

o yes.... we went Fish and Co. hahahah trust me ... they are in the HALLOWEN mood!!! there is the SPOOKY MENU!!! they have "Ghostly Fish" and "Witch Potion"... hahah n guess what??? i have successfully transform into a witch!! coz i ordered that drink!!!! HAHAHAHAAHHAHHA
no wonder my nose is getting slightly crooked!!!!!

muahahaahahahah lame.....

sigh.... it is ... tues ... already... it will b wed in 1 hr... sigh... means he will b gone ... once again....
i really ...simply cant help ...but to feel sad.... i cant help it!! REALLY.....if u were to give me another lifetime to b with him??? i will still tell u ... that is not enough... just not enough....

Happy times flies.... i must admit....

*sobssssssssss*

*sniff*

Cali-ians...

2005-10-17T01:30:00.000-07:00

oooo ya... this pic is missin when i upload for the launch!! haha of body combat!! this is my thur gang for combat!! well... everydae ...different gang!!!! hahahahaahah o ya!! me in white.... joey on my extreme right (black), Ozy (pink), Ida (blue with bandana) and on my left, Demas (with the cap).

oooo ya.... just go this pic from lady Di... ahhaha there is Diana in red ...n me in white!!no no ... different top.... that one on top is from NIKE ... this is from EVERLAST!!! hahaha well... as i said... we can never have a straight face when we pose for camera!!! hahahahah love that face!! ahha ho ya... we were at cali...after workout!!! hahahhaah

oooo this is a sneak preview of us ... the cali-gymmers PIGGING out at Swissotel Merchant Court...for amelia's bdae!!! ahahah well.... we can never b serious can we??!!! hahahah i love this pic!! i love candid!! or rather ...wacky foto!!!!!

more to come!!!

n o ya... i misssss my buy already.... he just dropped me off .... sigh....hopeless eh me...

Perfecto~~~

2005-10-15T11:40:00.000-07:00

PERFECTLY in love!!!

hahaha...that is me ... now at this current stage...this current dae... this current moment...
n yes... he is back!

The soldier... returning back home...after fighting a long battle... in foreign soil...
He maybe back to just rest and heal his wounds...
he maybe back to just shine his armour and sharpen his sword...
he maybe back to recharged, gearing up for the next fight...

but... this short period is good enough... good....
when he is back... he always load me with so much stuffs...
more then u can imagine...
he is my knight in shiny armour...

he is back....

well... guess not any entries anytime soon... unless i feel like blogging... haha...
yes yes ... it is the same for me...

when u are in the land of happiness... u wont feel like doin anything but... pay maximum attention... to him and him only... devotion of time... watever u call... it wont b long ... but... hey ... i will b back!!!!

with more stuffs to write about!! =)

DUN MISS ME!!!
*wink*
o ya...HMMM...since most of u guys will not get to see what he get me... here are SOME of the stuffs he bought for me!!!
he is just pampering me toooooo much!! way tooo much!!!!!!

old... i feel...

2005-10-12T12:55:00.000-07:00

(click on the image for a better view of the strip)

It is storming outside.... rain is falling left right center... wind is blowing .... everything is wet out there...
i am getting ready for sch... but... since time haven really reached just as yet... i decided to read comic hahah...
when reading my fav comic... this is one particular strip that i stumbled ... hahahaha..

R we getting old???

Boy o boy... i feel old already....
tsk tsk....

The countdown...

2005-10-12T11:33:00.000-07:00

30 more hours...

That is a pretty short time to wait ...compared to 4 weeks ago...
BUT ... it is still a long time...
but... it is 30hours... seems like a long wait... a very long wait...

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

* listening to Delta Goodrem - Lost Without You

i am wrong...

2005-10-11T13:59:00.000-07:00

I am wrong.... totally...

I am waiting.... waiting for the dae u arrive back...
my arms will find the way to you...

i miss you... like crazy!!!!!

Life...goes on...

2005-10-11T01:20:00.000-07:00

It is obviously a mon… and guess ... it is never a blue mon for me if I am in the gym for my 4 fav classes back to back… friends are like physco-ing me to go over tmr for another 2hrs of christina’s classes… so no life sia!!! Everydae gym…talk bout nothing but gym…sia la!!!

Anyway… that is that… I went out with one of my galfriends todae… and I realized that …seriously gals …cant b so mah fun!! TroublesomeE!!! That is the word in BOLD print!! Aiyo! Buy one simple stuffs… must take so long to buy..this cannot that cannot…this too ugly that too expensive!! Aiyoooooooooo for goodness sake!! It is a buying rubberbands to tie the hair!! Not choosing husbands off the shelves!!! GOSH!!

There are a few stuffs that I realize guys must endure their entire life with their partner :
1) Too sensitive over stuffs
2) Too fussy over small matter
3) Making a scene in the public
4) Being too possessive
5) Not giving him enough space to do MANLY stuffs with his pals
6) Control finances too tightly
7) Questioned him bout everything he do
8) Constant “reports” he has to give to her
9) Jealousy
10) Being too “Girl” and “tai-tai” some times

Tsk tsk… ok o k…it is not as if I am a GUY!! HALO!! But as a gal I can even feel that …. Gosh !! can u imagine what will those guys think man!! Worst!! Or are they used to it??!!! Hey gals…. U are so ruining the reputation man!! Tsk tsk….

Lets see… nothing much happen todae… just that ... todae is mon… went over to hospital… shopping the ngym then home… boring dae huh??? Boring me…
Well shopping hmm…. Well … secret mission?? Hahaha not really …but gearing up and saving for stuffs ahhaha…. Not for me thou… well … .can bear to spend $$$ on myself…waste $$$... rather else where…

Everyone is bz these daes… no time for this no time for that… no time… basically …not enuf time… well…. That upsets me most of the time…for different reasons…being too bz….Everyone is never enough with the 24hrs they were given…

Sigh… the worst thing has happen… I think .. .i have grown used to it…
Grown used to what u may ask…
Well… grown used to these:

1) What people are complaining
2) people rushing everywhere
3) people leaving prints in your life
4) how times flies
5) how people age

Guess there are too much things happening around these daes for me to not think... i am tooo sad... to depress these daes... for me ... either gym till i am numb... or ... stone till i am STONED.... i have no mood for anything.... there are just toooo much happening around me these daes... from fam to sch to everywhere.... life suck...

I will FREEEZE u...

2005-10-09T23:58:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 5am... for these... what i did todae .... WOOT!!
ok ok ... .lets see... if memory never fail u!!! i actually went to do my hair some times back... yes yes with all the foil stuck to my head and whatsoever.... n yes. .. all that shite for this dae only... that 1 hr of glamour...well those shite includes sitting in the salon for 7hr, have foil stuck to ur head like a mad woman, pain scalp due to the stinging dye, sleeping 3hrs and wakin up at 5am just to get to Pan Pacific Hotel at 7am....

The shites just cant get any better... well here are some pictures of what happen PART of todae... hahaha.... hmmm..i may have grumble alot....crap alot... COMPLAINT alot!! but....i must say ... i quite like it ...as it is fun!! hahahaha.... well... lets see what happen todae....

(Below) : Lounge area at Pan Pacific where we are meetin Violet (the hairstylist) and rest for the event... o ya and the rest of the ppl involved....

(Below) : The other view .... ahhaha i am just bored....

(Below) : HAHHAHAHA RED INDIAN in the house!!! ahhahah well .... i am the 1st gal to b putting on make up!! i just sat down... the make-up artist just swipped on the concealer... the cheorographer needs us to b at the stage doin the walk... so... hahah he pulled me out and ... this is what i looked.... hahaha... i think this is darn cool!!!!(Below) : BACKSTAGE PASSES!!! ahhaha this is the backstage in the grand ball!! wel ... we have ppl doin hair!! we have ppl doin make up! we have ppl doin body arts!! we have ppl taking pics!! BZ BZ!!! hustle Bustle!!!!

(Below) : TA-DA!!!! this is me!!!!Miss ICE QUEEN of the event!! i am the last person in the entire walk... so means... i am the last person to actually have that EFFECT... and so... hahah this is what i get... (Below) : This is after the walk.... and guess who is this??? our hairstylist... VIOLET! ahhaha.. leme guess...u were thinking it is a female rite??!!! ahhahahaahah....and fot this pic... it is ... "When the WHITE meets the BLACK!!"

(Below) : Chris came too LATE!! i finish my walk already ... then he appear!! SIA LA!!! tsk tsk... but he is sweet enuf to get me ... apple strudel, coffeebean's lowfat mocha and mineral water... all in a small paper bag... EVA and DIANA who are there... got so jealous!! hahahhhhaha... damn funny sia they!!!!(Below) : well....once after the event... i took off the 4inch stilleto i m wearin... it is such a killer... and pluck off that blue feather... well TOO MUCH attention i am getting.ahahah this is when i am at the back stage!!! hahaha foooling arnd with anything... check out.. MISS HAWAIIAN next!!

Well these are the pic that i used my mobile to take... i forgot my camera as i left house in a daze ahhah i will upload more more pic later when i get the pics from my friends... they had more pic.... ahhaha then u can see me in action!!! hahahah

i went for combat todae...after the event... as i have to b there for pump trainin!! and guess what!! i am selected!!! YEA!!!!! with another gal..jolene... hahahah we will b team teaching soon!!! which means.... sigh...stress...get more clothes... more $90 per piece top.... *urgh* die sia.... ex eh!!!! and .... well... the guys are like so upset...

i dunno what to say .. but ... it is a long story.... politics.... watever...

Just now steven was asking me about what i have been bz with and bout my mom and i was telling him i am sto bz over so much stuffs .... but still ... these are the top 3 that he ranked for me...

1) mom
2) exam
3) leo

then i told him... it is all wrong.... it is as followed all along....

1) leo
2) mom
3) exam

i simply miss him....tremendously!!

this thur he will b back!! well... cant wait ...i simply cant.... i wana hug him!!!! yipppie!!!!

party daes..

2005-10-07T00:58:00.000-07:00

Party??!! that is the word that is furthest from my head...
TJ just msg me ... on whether if i wan to go party this weekend...
it has been long long long since i last went party!! i cant even rem when... it was when the guys are all still in SG... now that most have fly and goin to fly or outstation... well... not so soon i gues...
but clubbing with TJ... he will sure asked the rest of the gang out... like ellayas and kelvin... well ... they are nice ppl to hang out... but as in clubbing??? eh... i think i will b the only last man standing on the dance floor...
they ?? ahah i gues... they will b wither picking gals up ... or drunk at one corner...

i hate to drink... cant take alcohol too!! bad drinker ... good drunker!!

but i love dancing!!! o ya... my pals are all suprise when i tell them that i can dance from 11pm .. all the way to 330am non stop... occassional stop for a shot or two... and dancing all nite with my 3inch or 4inch heels...i win! yes yes!!!! champian!!

i sure miss those daes... mambo nite... ahahh well .. i noe i noe... boring... but... i kinda lik the music... haven grown out of that era yet....still a very much retro person... like shades...still very much into retro shades.... except ...the fashion stuffs..not much a retro person i must say!! ahhahah

but ... i turn him down.... cant party... i have to b at Pan Pacific Hotel at 7am on sun... hw to party sia!! reach hoime... look at my bed and get out of house again ah?? pure madness...then ppl at bobbi brown have to pile on concealer like noone's prob sia!!! on my face that is...

o well...next time then... party yea man!! party!!dance till the moon goes home and the sun comes out to play!! drink till i KO (whic is very fast!! muahha)!!!!

Missing...

2005-10-05T00:36:00.000-07:00

I miss my guy.... bad....

Pray to Queen Aluminium!!

2005-10-05T00:33:00.000-07:00

Well... got back from the hairstylist!! n i tell u !! IT SUCK!!! phew!!!! ok ok ... i m being asked to do a hair fashion show this sun at Pan Pacific hotel. it is a walk for Gucci, Prada, Fendi and all the big fashion names... we are suppose to get hair styled..by the hair stylist. the theme is for the coming Winter. the latest coolest hair FEEL...

So i was expecting ... blue streaks or ash hair or... i dunno what CYBER coool colours they have... but!!! the effect turned out... eh.... u can rate for urself...
me and Darren were there at "Raperella" @ Raffles place at 2pm...and guess what...both of us stepped out at ... 9pm...7 hrs... well wondering what we are doin inside??? hahaha well here are what we are being transformed into!!!!

(Below) : Solar energy!! that is what i need for energy!! it has been so long since i last wen to the beach!!! hahahaah so ned more sun !!! MORE MORE MORE!!!! o... i look like a mad gal sia!!!

(Below) : The back view looked worst!! tsk tsk... like packets of Stringray stuck to my head! yum.... i love bbq string ray sia!! can have the whole fish to myself hahhaha.....
O yes... the colours were red and blonde... layers by layers.... one lay red ...the other blonde...

(Below): GEESH!!! when my head gets tooo much dye... i get crazy!! pain!!! tooo stinging for the scalp!!! ooo ya!!! and the rest of the head??? dark brown!!! and so!! this is what i get!! i am Crowned Queen there!! by the hairstylist!!! ahhahah dun i look like one??? Queen Aluminium!!
(Below): somehow ... i like the side view better... ahahahah...coz ... i look funky!! as if i have i have dreadlocks!!! Woooow!!! funky!!!!!!! PLAY THAT FUNKY MUSIC!!!! hit it boys!!!
(below): WOOOT!!! even more dreadlocks!!!! yea man!! sup PPL!!!! yo yo yo!!!! party in the house!!! (below): well...after getting so much stuffs stuck to my head... it is now removed.... and ... washed ... and blow dried ... and ... PERMED>??!!!! yewwwwwww s auntie sia!!! SO RETROO!!!! halo!!! mister stylist... u were saying ... it is ... WINTER with the COOOL touch rite??? eh.... wrong century leh!!

(Below): more upclose!!!! can u see the colours???!!! o that guy at the back?? that is darren... he has got...ash brown...with a hint of blue streak by the side.... can u see those blue stuffs on his head??
(Below): this is the effect under normal lights.... BORING!!! *yawn*... winter cool look?? my arse!!!!!! think i can do s much better than him sia!!! yewwww!! he suck!!

(below): hahahah this darren... hahaha his hair looked like it is taken from the godfather sia!!! ahha really really ...when hair is being dyed... it was like white in colour man!!! hahahha and his hair!! sia la!! yes yes...spikes are in!! i noe....
(Below): Eh...seriously!! i dun see any chges leh!! same as what i see at 2pm leh!!!!

Well....after that.... the grumbling stomaches...decided to have prata next door!! and so... prata is what we have ...with ... mango teh??!!!! eh... that is what ...the uncles said.... and guess what... after drinking 1/2... i realised i think i taste ... milk..... uh.... ummmmmmmmmmm

whatever... so when u see me.... next time... i noe the colour suck!! i hate it myself!! i was EXPECTING better colouts... LOUDER colours...cooooler COLOURS!! DUHHHH.. .well ... now have to reach Pan Pacific hotel by ... 7 am sun!!!!! AIYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...tooo early sia~~~~~~~ o ya... makeup cre will b from bobbie brown that dae!!! WOOOT!! o ya...held on SUN!!! ahah full dae event... but me and darren have to leave early... for training!! haahah

o yes!!! heard that there will b full blown media there!!! might b on TV or newspaper!! WOOOT!!!

Utterly confused...

2005-10-03T00:31:00.000-07:00

weekends... they used to be fun... used to be perfect...used to be daes that i looked forward totally... well .. i always have plans !! or rather... it used to be perfectly planned... somehow or another...
guess not todae... not this weekend....

i have been thinking too much on my way home from training... from what Liz said to ... what i missed so much.... well ... have to start memorising my tracks... my moves.... perfecto it!! well so stressing.... stuffs that liz expects... hmmm high expectations.... what can i say... i have to ... i must!!! in order not to disappoint everyone and myself...

what i misses?? hmmm lets see.... fun daes spent under the sun... with friends ... with the volleyball...company of the sun sand and sea and good company...what else can i ask for...
i missed those daes whereby my gang just go off for buffets everyweek after whole dae beach volleyballing.... i miss those daes i really sit down and network with my juniors.... listening to them... i miss those daes whereby me and my parents will sit by or fighting in the bed hahahah ... and wrestling... and brainstorming what to cook for dinner.... i miss those daes.... and these daes.... i just miss my guy....

sats have already been a routine for me.... gym gym gym... gathering with friends... dinner ... then home... sun...well depends... home home...study study... then out...

i dunno what is the purpose of this entry.... i just feel like typing... i dunno ...
i dun even noe what i am feeling now...
no dun worry bout me... i am just feeling.... lost...

a totally mixed feeling...
very very sad from my mom's case....
very very sad from missin my bf...
very very sian from needing to memorise 20 tracks...
very very taxing from the fact that i dunno my sch work..
very very sad that my friend is heading to NS again...
very very happy that a few have ORD and commissioned...
very very angry with myself for not being a good daughter...
very very disappointing with myself for not being a good friend...
very very sad case...

i just feel like numbing myself by working out NON-stop for like the whole week...
i dunno what i am feeling now...

no i am not hainv PMS... DUH!!

i dunno why....
i really realy cannot put into words how i feel now...

i dun feel like mixing with the world...
i dun feel like talking to anyone..
i dun wan any symphathy from anyone...coz i dun need...
i guess there are time whereby ppl need to really shut away from the world... so feel the peace and quiteness...
to clear their heads and think....

i am ... a strong person...

i will be....
i will be and aspire to be a career woman...
i will be and aspire to be a lady in power suit...
i will be and aspire to be a good wife of Mr Perfect...
i will be and aspire to be the lady behind the man in power suit...
i will be and aspire to be the mother of the family...

(what utter rubbish am i uttering...WTF is wrong with me....)
no logic at all... this particular entry...

i am just confuesd....
life suck....

the dae i lost my bestest buddy...

2005-10-01T00:43:00.000-07:00

*sobs*
*sobs*
*more sobs*

what will u do when ur closest closest closest friend suddenly disappear from the surface of the earth?
what will u do when he claimed that he lost his mobile?

we were once so close that we can walk side by side... shoulder to shoulder... like brothers...
we were once so close that his parents thot that i was his gf...
we were once so close that all my juniors noe that when i am around, he will b close by...
we were once so close that he will carry my heavy bags for me when i have trainings...
we were once so close that our thinking were so so alike and instinct pretty much the same...
we were once so close that he will only listen to what i say and no one else...
we were once so close that ... i shant say anything more... it breaks my heart more than anything.... it is like.... the other hand ...just got paralysed....

my closest pal... closest friend... my crying shoulder... my bitching image... my mountain to lean on... my shadow...my bruther...

now???
gone....
with...
the...
wind...

when my junior saw him todae... she asked him bout me... and why i msg him ...called him... he never replied...
he said i dunno...
lost his mobile...
everything dunno....

it just breaks my heart... to learnt that he can just ..... ignore me ... ignore us.... ignore the whole world totally....

well.... he is the one who listen to me bitch when bad stuffs happen...
he is the one i crap about when my bf aint arnd...
he is the one i hammer when i need to punch someone...
we share memories...

come on...since ...i am in year 2????!!!!!
since... 2002~~~~~
come on.....

it just ...breaks my heart....

sigh..

anyway....

i will b alrite....
after 10 pack of tissues....
after 10 roll of toilet paper....
after 10 litres of tears...

i think i might ... stop for awhile....
just a while...

sad dae....

2005-09-29T22:34:00.000-07:00

Cold curry puff has no taste....esp those whic are refrigerated...and it taste horrible...

it has been sometime since i last blog...

too many things happening around here....

well... shant state all... too depressing...

anyway... o ya!! went to try out Harry's intro steps!! power!!! ahahah well there are so many moves that he forgot and he fumbled on stage!!! but i still must say he is not bad!!
harry is one of the pump54ers~~ ahhaha he just can teach steps coz he has been training since 5 months back!! woooot!!
it is fun!! there is wallace, eric, darren ee and me !! ahah tand a few others in the class... small class... but still...it is fun!!

but no thanks.... if it is other teaching ... i wont b thre!! i am there for this steps..coz its harry's class... i support my pump54ers !!! ahhahaahah

ooopss....

well wanted to go for pump at ...755...coz there is some many ppl i noe thre!! there is ming, chris, clarene and many many more!! but.... i just aint in the mood.... well... not really a fantastic fantastic dae... but....i am alrite...

mayb...a little tearing might do it all good!! hahahaah

hmmm... there is accounts class tmr....
can i concentrate??? sigh..... hard to say....

there is no more chocolate left... but...i am not feeling happily high....
just....
that is all???!!!!
haahah....

O yes... and .... Steven is so cute sia! haha he will send me pic of the food he eat! i must say he is the true blue food critic that all must kao tao to!!! ahhaahah i must say... his sms... is always interesting!! thanks steven!! great friend indeed!!!
there is simply too many ppl sick these daes....
ppl are coughing....
ppl are sneezin...
eveyone is just not feeling well...

hmmm bad weather!!
so please take care...

To my one and only:

i really really really miss u sooo much!!!
take care ya!!!
=)
i am waiting for u to return home...

i am so SpeARs...

2005-09-27T00:40:00.000-07:00

OOOPss... i did it again....

well what have i done?? ... simple.... got sick ... ha...and while my guy is away... that is the worst part...and i upset him ...by hitting the gym before i really recovered fully...
tsk tsk....
i.... well...sorry dear....

It has been...a few daes...7 daes to be exact that he is gone...
it is a long 7 daes... it feels like ages....
i miss him...terribly!!!! so much ... it hurts....

Just read his blog... and what a weekend he has....
it is just to dangerous out there! i seriously rather hear that he is bz in office rather than out there ..drinkin and getting into all kinds of stuffs... at least he is safe and sound in office...

he is so far away... in the distant land...
from where i am...
in the distant horizon...
what else can i hope for???

just him to be safe...

wooow ... that weekend that he had....
my heart was like... leaping...
but he is safe.... phew...

I simply simply miss him!!!
miss him so much!!!
i just hope that he will take care of himself when i am not around...
when there is no one to look after him...

Everynite ... i will wait for his call...
just hearing his voice ... even for a min... or a sec... it will b soooo GREAT!!
it is just great to hear his voice...
whatever that i have been bothered by...
whatever that i have problem with...
for that instant...
everything is gone...

hearing his voice...
that is the nearest to him...i can get... when he is away...
apart from the bears i got from him and the pics of him....
yea....

=)

take care my dear...
please do....
dun work out so much when u are sick..
PLEAse???

pictures that says so much more than a thousand words..

2005-09-25T15:06:00.000-07:00

Well... here are the few pic taken from my hp camera...not very fantastic images...but still they tell alot!!! they are fond memories that cant be erased... well this are the boys who are there and all sec sch... there are lot more...but have either yet to come or cant come...

(Below): how come guys take so long to get ready for camera??? tsk tsk....sigh....

(Below) : At last... tsk tsk... well ... the guy in the center... in blue...that is the bdae boy! my once-very very very good buddy!!! steve... =)
lets see.. from L to R, we have CZ, Alvin, Bear, ZY, Andy, Steve, DS, DW, Vincent and WC...(Below): here comes the cake!! o ya!! GUESS WHAT!!??? tis huGEEEE cake is baked by his younger sister HERSELF!! she is a good baker...since the dae i noe him ... till noe...she has the passion for baking... she is good... coz the cake...taste fanstatic!! i was learnign from her actually ahhaha....shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh(Below): Hmmm... here comes the bdae boy!!!well he is actually blushing blushing....hahaha he is always a blusher!! red face..red ears!! that is his trademark!!!!! o ya... if u notice... te wind is too strong that it had already blown out the candles b4 he did... he is so upset hahahah.....(BeloW) : HAHHAHA....yes yes ... he will need to pose a pic for me!!!!! else i will kill him!!!!(Below) : well... after the BUFFET spread of food!!! after those lovely servings of cakes!!! the guys hanged out at the porch!! CHATTING BOUT .......NS....sigh... o ya.... and .... ahhha sec sch life... DARN FUNNI....ahhahahaahahah PURE memory~!!!! wat a nite of laughter!!!!(Below): hmmmm what is a bdae bash nite out without alcohol??!! there are so many bottles of everything!! u name it they have it!!! it is like a pub's supply of alcohol available there man!!! hahahah (Below): Bdae boy and me!!!sorry ah... hair alittle messy!!!!! hohoho..... well... he is tall la... that is y he needs to bend over alittle... he is ....wat... 1.89??? o watever....(Below) : What happen when 1 drinks too much?? ones get drank.. what happens when 2 get a little tipsy??? they get crazy!!!!!! ahahahahahahah(Below) : I SWEAR!! I AM NOT DRUNK!!!!! ooo this is the interior of the MAzda!!! ahahha it is CZ's new CAR!!!! wooot!! think....1 week old!! i am his 1st passenger!!!! woooot wooot!!!

hahahaahaha

SIGH!!! i am suppose to go for the dragonboat tryout!!! BUT!!!! i cant!!! my parents wont allow!! say i am tooo sick to go!!! choy!!!

just fever,.....flu....and cough....lidat why cant???!!!! sian sian !! diana and gang r all heading to sentosa my juniors in sentosa!! my gang are in sentosa! i am ??? STUCK AT HOME!!!

*grumble grumble....*

i hate being sick!!!! pui pui!!!

well.... lek just msg me...asked me where i am... i told him yesterdae that i will b heading over to kallang for the DB tryout...then i asked him to come..coz he can train me hahaha...coz he was the ex-VP for the DB in NP..so ... ahahah more fun... he said that he will b meeting his friends at sentosa... sigh...

then he just msg me... he said that he is at kallang already...and ... where i am??!!!

HE IS THERE!!!!! he fly his friends aeroplane!!! and i m not there!!! I AM... GUILT-STRIKEN MAN!!! but i was touched!!! =)

thanks LEK... i owe u one... =)

A long lost friend's bdae bash

2005-09-25T01:38:00.000-07:00

all thanks to my dad.... and mom sia!! they made me watch "The Maid" with them...and guess what??!! i cant sleep for the entire nite last nite!! i am dead serious... i keep jerking outa bed... i am pratically sweating man!! under those hot covers!!! sigh....they made me suffer!!!
sigh......

anyway...i am sick....gosh....
fever, flu and sore sore sore throat... i am voiceles soooon!!! sigh....

o ya...went to steve's bdae!! welll he is my best buddy in secondary and poly!! well he is a good mate!! it is nice to be over!! it has been long since i last went over... we were once very ver close...but i guess he being in NS and all....we have drifted... but ... ha...it is ok...it is still nice to see him all over again...=)

we made him drink and drink hahhaha
he had so many bottles of hard liqour - absolute vodka, vodka orange, chivas, XO...whatever u name there it will b... his dad has tons of it !!!
well i was sabo-ed to drink... haha

had a few shots of SOLID hard liqour!!! GEEESH!!!!
lucky CZ saved me...and Bear... else i sure seh!!!!
sigh...
but after that... i didnt stay long...went off at bout ..1130....
CZ drove me home... haha o ya.... he bought his new mazda!!! nice nice!! o ya....i will show u the picture of the interior i took...ahahah cant b bothered to take the exterior of the car...tooo dark...cant see anything...

i will upload the pictures soon...well took a few pic...candid shots there and there... well have to wait for friends to sent some over...coz i forgot my camera...i chg bag u see...

*sniff* *sniff*
*ahhhhhh-CHoooooooooooooooo8

'cuse me....

geesh... ok ok i am goin to take medication....else later i will get my guy all worried...
yewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww...the medicine!!! YEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
pui pui puiiiiiiiii

oooo it is goin to storm here tonite!!!! the wind is powerful!!!!
treees are like goin to break!!!!
hmmmmmmmmmm.....it is goin to rain!!!!
it is goin to be cold....

and i miss my guy....

everyday i will...

everyday...

Rollercoaster rides!!

2005-09-23T12:31:00.000-07:00

Missing one person...
that is me...
i wish upon a star every night to wish that my dream wil come try..
i pray at the corner of my bed... praying for his safety and health...
i hope that he will be happy ... wherever he is...
that is all i can ask for... for him to be happy!!!
=)

well many at times... i keep complaining bout this scenarios that i hate... tat scenarios that i dislike...hmmm...todae... i will show u ...2 views that i hate the most...

For this pic... u guys will need to go figure out what it is ... where it is.... it is pretty obvious thou...hate this place... and this word... it is a familiar place for me already ... but still it will take sometime for me ... to get over it hahha....it is still not bad thou!!!

This is the view that upsets me the most.... the back view....he behind those glass panel...standing behind the counter.... that is ... bad....

well all these are from my view... the images that i hate... the images that doesn makes me feel better....in any ways....

BUT HEY!!! in my life... when there is a DOWN..there will always b an UP!!!SO... it makes no exception to this...=)

=) he will look good no matter what... no matter when... no matter how!!! hah.... well even when he is waiting for his food to come at "Pepper Lunch"...ahhah can hear his growlin stomach!! dreamy eyes??? hmmm..... simply...adorable!!!!

o yes... and he might be back sooner than expected!!! YAAAAY!! i am so happy!!! now that my accounts assignment is over (but it still doesnt puts me outa misery thou...sigh)...and knowing that he is coming home soon!!! just made my fridae... PURRRRRRRR-FECTO!!!!

hmmmm well ... i wil start to read up on accounts either later tonite or my marketing... hmmmm hhah now i have the POWER to study!!! better faster get over and done with!! then i can play!! yippie!!!

cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait for him to be back!!! YIIIPIEEE YIPPIEEE YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

ok ok enuf of being on cloud 9..i need to go sch liao!!! later having accounts lecture !! YAAAY!!! HAPY HAPPY!!!! hahahahahahaha HURHURHUR hohohohohoh hehehehehehe.... simply happy todae.... oooo and i just had dark chocolate, Dear!!! hahahahahaah... ooopsy!!!!!

stomach war!!!

2005-09-23T01:39:00.000-07:00

stomachache!!! URGHHHHH!!! cramp...since like 4pm!!
well thanks to MILK!! yes...literally milk...i cant drink milk...
and now i hate the drink "Sunrise" from Coffeebean...it is the main cause of my pain now...

i am crashing my head ... burning my braincells to get my accounts assignment done, it is due tmr b4 1pm... sigh... and here with the pain... sigh...well it aint my fault... a friend just out of goodwill bought me a regular SUNRISE...so out of courtesy i had it... it will b totally bad if i throw it away when she purposely get me that drink rite... it just aint right...
but the pain...
it can b unbearable thou...

Just gota a call from my darling...
it just made my pain go off for awhile!!!
i simply treasure those short few mins of talk... it means the world to me!!
simply made my day!!!

but...heard that he will b stayin in the office the entire night again...makes me wana hug him... hug him and never let go...
poor baby...
it aint his fault... but he just have to be the one who suffers to get things right...
he wont be sleeping ...wont be getting enough rest...wont be eating right...wont b ...just wont b... in good health if this continues...
furthermore he is already sick...coughin...it is goin to be bad....
i should have bought medicine instead of strepsils for him...tsk tsk.... dumb me...

i miss him.... i miss him so much...

him being away ... and not taking care of himself...
tsk tsk...
heartache sia!!!

combat 25 launch!!

2005-09-22T11:39:00.000-07:00

The pictures that u all are waiting for~~

Ok.. here are some of the moves in the launch... i must say that this launch is a very SHOWOFF lauch...alot of very funni movements... but they are more ENTERTAININ than b4..

(Left): that is one of the KAH TAR move... i like that... coz ... it looks cool AHHAHA...
(Right): the finale of one of the power track... eh...very Robbie Williams leh...tsk tsk... showoffs....

After all the workout...push ups and sit ups IS A MUST!! and therefore ... getting down on the floor... is expected!! but ...

(Left)LOOKING LIKE DOG PEe-ing??? hmmm aint GLAMOUROUS!!! yewwwww

(Right) Cool down! this is the one COOL DOWN track that i do not really fancy!!! too much unwanted action!! tsk tsk.... looks nice!!! but... alittle NON-Practical...doesnt cool a person down much thou... haha

After the launch!! EVERYONT STARTS TO MONKEY!!! hahahaha ok ok leme do a formal intro to all!!

(Left): Cheslyn, Azrino, Suhaimi, Ayesha

(Right): ok ok ...show offs and cuties.. u should noe who ae the showoffs and the cuties... no need to say.... HAHAHAHAHAH

Well...o ya... this is a pic of the few combat mates i hang out with for combat class!! well there is Demas, Joey and Ida!!! they are the super LOUD gang!! my night gang!!! wOOOT!!!! they are coool... o... n me.... sorry..... i just cant keep still... cant pose for camera... must make funni faces... else i will die!!! AHHAAHAHAHAH

o crap... think there is an error... o well there are more nice pic... but ... cant upload... dunno why...

but here they are... i will b back sooon to complain or crap!!!

dun miss me!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA

dead serious...i am

2005-09-21T00:50:00.000-07:00

Once again... he is gone... that is like a fast 1 week...
Then i am back again... to my sch work...
i have not touch anything since he reached singapore!! i only want to spend full fledge of time with him and only him...

sending him to the airport...i say it once again...was never ez.. and will never b...
seeing him...behind that glass.... aint ez
seeing his backview disappear into those crowd...aint ez...
nothing ever is when he is leaving...

and to make matter worst!! he is sick!!!
tsk tsk... he never tell me ...coz he dun wan me to forbid him goin gym!!! tsk tsk... how can???!!!
he is coughin badly sia!!! that is bad ... bad bad!!!!
*heart ache*

hmm...just have to deal with it ... myself...
o well... ok ok lok on the brighter side... i have more time to study and understand my weakest link - accounts...

now i that he is gone...
guess what!!!

my "enter" button spoil... i haven try out that printer driver yet...and i forgot to sent out the warranty for my laptop!!! and my accounts assignment is due 24th SEPT!! and todae??? 20th already...no no ...21st... as it is past midnite!!! i have yet to start on anyting ...as i SERIOUSLY seriously do not know how to do!!! and i am serious bout it!!! i really really am clueless!!!!
and there is also exam coming up!!! o crap!!!guess this remaining week u will or might not see me in the gym!!! no choice!!! exam ...that one... ok ... but... assigment...
thinking of it ... will make me cry!! coz i really dunno...
can i copy??!! haha....
that is so poly life!!! tsk tsk....

o yes... and rem i was complainin me not working out at all at the combat launch!! coz i am the photographer... well bein the photographer...
i can share some sneak previews!!!

here are some of the picts!!!
feast ur eyes!!!

ok ok will upload tmr... think the sys have prob ah.... keeping hangin on me..sian...

for now???
i am strugglin over my econs and crying over my accounts....
i am dead serious!!!
i really am....struggling and crying....
urgh....wimp....

5th month anniversary!!

2005-09-20T00:09:00.000-07:00

Just came back from gym...not a througout workout dae for me...as it is a mon... but it is a dae well spent!!! esp when it is quality time with my guy!!!!

and todae...marks the dae of our 5th month anniversary!!! more to come thou!!! but at last it is a month whereby we are together physically..not mentally!! haha!!

anyway.... todae's combat and box class are as per normal...
nothing much happening todae i must say...
usual stuffs...
but tmr...
he is flying...
prfffffft!!!!

o well.... work ...impt!!

lets see.... food.... food ...food...that is what we have been doing most of the time this week...
hahaha...it is fun thou... he had his tummy trimmed.... me??? eh.... i think i can start seeing spare tyres man!!! yewwwwwwwww....
o yes.... had food at Zion with henry eva me and my guy... hahah a fun fun trip!! just love eva !!! haha my darling gal!!!she is so cute!!! hahha...coz she basically wants to eat everything that is there!! and i mean everyting!!!! hahaha she is such a darling hahahahaha cant tahan her sometimes!!!!

o ya!! i forgot!! tmr have to go over to Taka ... to my agency to get some stuffs signed... well it is a for an audition for MTV's commercial or part of a MTV clip....dunno man!!! ther are so many jobs...but i am getting bored... co it just aint my interest...
the shoot is on Wed thou...will get there...b4 sch....
hmmmm... o welll...whatever!!!
not interested...but just b there... my agent has been callin me so many times... but...ahhaha i never ans i think...there must b so man projs for me.... but whoe cares!!!

and sch...sometimes ... i wonder if i should study man!!! well yes yes i noe it is the route and passport to the world...but... seriously there are times in class where i stare at the lecturer and wonder what on earth m i doin there... do i need all these??? well mayb it is accounts that make me feel like crap!! but...sigh...wth.... forget it... still have to study!! i paid for me own fees eh!!!! blardy F***... have to suffer like crap!!! study la!!!
sigh...

i just feel lousy when it comes to talking bout sch....

Weekend well spent!

2005-09-19T00:44:00.000-07:00

Hmm....after spending quality time with my darling boy over the weekend... i seriously still think that we haven got enough time... but..what to do... just cherish what i have now...
and wait... i must confess!! yes yes i spend alot of $$$$ on those new wardrobe!! sorry dear... yes i got warnings... nope..not from u thou... haha... but ...yes... i wont do it again... no more spending $$$$$ on me...else... i will die...

O yes...went Ayer Rajah with my bf and his family to the temple then went to have brunch! i like the indian rojak actually..well i never really realise ...till like ... NOW ahhah coz i am like...craving for it!!! hahahaah YES YES!!! hmmm..... they are nice... thou alittle tooo oily for me... not used to it!! but... still ok!!!!
=)

and ...the weather todae suck!! it rained from...eh....5plus am??? else i will b by the beach!! haha but ...there wil b other time to b there... for now??? the place to b?? next to my guy!!simple as that!! my fav spot!!!

well... he bought so much moon cake for my fav!!! durian!!! YEAAAAAAAAA i ate A FEW liao!! hemmmm hemmm...yes yes A FEW!!! have to lose them those access baggage soon!! OOOPSSSS
but they are nice!! hmmm... *slurp*
oooo ...there is another expenditure from my guy again... *glup* (guilty)

seriously...if u ask me which daes i enjoyed the MOST with him since he is back... i must say ...that dae we went on the shopping spree!!! n NO!!! NOT BECOZ he buy me the entire world!! but ... coz ...for that dae... i feel that we have mesh into one... there is no gym.... no nothing ... no noone to hinder... i dunno...but that dae... i was so happy... it is not that the rest aint... but .... just slightly different...
and o yes... forgot... sat went sushi teh with marilyn, winston and henry and us of coz....eh..shant comment on it... i know myself can already... =)

so...what am i goin to do tmr??? nothing then gym??? that is my usual routine...but ... since he is back...should i not to gym and hang out with him??? but what can we do??? what will he wan to do?? will he skip the his usual gym regine??
*bleah* dunno....

o well... he will b flying off again....
*shrug*

New WARDROBE!!!

2005-09-16T00:59:00.000-07:00

YAAAY!!! i got a brand new ....ok ok ...almost a whole new wardrobe!!! yaaa!!!! all credit goes to my darling... he paid for everything i must say!! he is the angel!!!

what is impt is i am able to spend my entire dae with him...that is very impt to me!!!
he bought so much stuffs for me...spend a fortune....
tsk tsk....
love him to bits....

got a few tops.... a bottom...
that is alot of $$$$$$
went from one point to another...
from far east to wheelock to taka...woow... shopping spree...

and i must say... he is one of those few guys who have the patience to walk with me ... up an down and all over orchard ... shopping...
he has the patience to wait for me to try out the clothes...
he has the patience to see what looks good and not...
he has the patience to hear what i have to say bout clothes...
and guess what... he is also cute enuf to get 2 top EXACTLY ok ok or rather similar...for me and him!!!!!

HE IS ... my angel!!!!
*muack*
he has pamper me so much!!!
he is spoiing me!!! tsk tsk....
well...i am ...simply....
addicted....
no no not to new wardrobe!!
but...
addicted to him!!!!
my one and only!!!!

and yes...we went to catch a movie after that... which sums up the dae...
the movie - Sum Of Thunder
eh...lets say...me and my guy both agree that they wil need more $$ to make it looked better... coz the graphics... hmmm...cant really make it anywhere....

after movie... home sweet home...
but ... coming home.. means ... i have to leave my guy...
sigh....
i...
miss him...already!!!
that is.....
not good!!!!
cant wait to see him tmr!!!!
well ... it will b in the gym that is... for the new release!!! haha combat!!!
well..dun worri!! i dun care already!!!
i will HIII HAHHHH HOOO HERRRR all the way!!1

i just wan to tell RINO that!! hha without ppl HI HAR HO HER is a dead class!!!
get it u idiot!!! turn that music softer la!! CRAP!!!

Aside to Roy:
Sorry for being such a spoiler at combat!! i just want to prove to THAT rino that ... the class will not survive if he THINKS That he is the GREATEST and thinks that ranking up the music and not hear us will help make the class noisy!!! he NEEDS us!!!! hmph....
and guess what.... i wont b like that anymore... jsut wan to prove him wrong that's all!!! HAHAHAHA
AND WE !!! WILL ROCK THAT CLASSES!!!!! WE WILL!!!! muahhahhaha *evil laughter*

sHoppiIN~~~~

2005-09-15T10:59:00.000-07:00

Exciting dae ahead!!
SHOPPING!!! yaaay~~~~~~

cant wait for it!!!!!
new wardrobe??? neh... just a few new pcs will do...
cant afford a whole wardrobe... will die...
as if i am printing $$ sia~~~~ ahhaha

well...todae is one WHOLE dae with my guy!!!
this is SOOOOO exciting...
hmmm

o no!!! i must get outa house liao!!!!!!
else i will b late.... hate myself to b late.... rather i wait than he wait...
=)
hear from me more later !!!!

for now???

SHOPPING!! NEW CLOTHES??!!! HERE I COME!!!!!

sleepy dae...

2005-09-14T00:52:00.000-07:00

I am so tired today in class!! Can u imagine, so far never have I feel like sleeping in lectures, today is the 1st ever…u can imagine how tired or boring class is…

Was talking to Ellyas last night till 4am!!!! He do not have to work …dun have to study…dun have to wake up so early ..but I have to what!! He is just excited over the new gal that he is into this week and tell me bout the gals that have been falling for hime for these 2 weeks. For a guys who just fall out of love, that is fast, to fall for yet another gal….
That is one reason for him calling, another is coz I was sad… I beeped him…. Thought he would be asleep… but nope he aint… and therefore he called… consoling each other basically!

Well apparently he got away talking and talking bout it… and well he stopped talking only when he remember I had class the next day, in the morning…tsk tsk…. Gosh….but me being me, do not know how to turn down a person… I think … it is kind of bad to turn away from a person when he/she needs to talk to u…

When I came home, I found my mom at home already… the usual her, show will not b home after 8plus 9…was home already!! It is 8!!! Hmmmmm… then she told me that … she injure her back AGAIN!!! Tsk tsk… that time I took her to somewhere near bukit batok to get here back acupunctured…and now??? Tsk tsk… ok ok I will need to bring her back there tmr…b4 sch starts….

Lucky for me…I studied liao…so … I can afford the time to bring her there.. =)
Guess I will just ned to make sure I get to sch b4 2pm…I wont know how long the wait is gona b… all I remembered was waiting there patiently for the SIN SHE to do her back….
But ….she told me that she will b heading to office after that???!!and dun wan me to go!! aiyoooooooooo

It is nice to actually spend time with my guy and his mom shopping… it aint the 1st time we are shopping…but … it wont b the last…it is actually quite fun thou!!! She is a very cute lady I must say… =)

Spending time with my guy is the most important issue to me these days… even thou the countdown is visibly there… saying goodbyes is always tough for me… hate that…. Hmm even like today, when he sent me home… sad for me… but … he needs to get some rest… he is …so visibly tired… jet lag,obviously….

I simply love him… miss him… need him!!! To bits!!!

SCREAM aloud

2005-09-13T00:59:00.000-07:00

i guessed i have never been so quiet for quite awhile...but i cant help it...
i must be totally obviously quiet todae...
i dunno why....but i dun seem to feel like talking much....
esp todae...

my mobile have been beeping...
all stuffs ppl complaint to me bout their lifes....
cant there b anything better than these???

i dunno what has really happen to me..seriously...
u can say that this is dumb...
u can say that i am mad...
so??? as if i care...

i m now in a state of mind whereby... i feel nothing...
numb...

crying aint the best solution to all the probs...
screaming neither is the better ones...
but... i have t use either methods...but ...recently i found out that working out everydae ... or rahter... every other dae...for long hrs in the gym is the better way!!!
can get rid of whatever access fats... be healthy...and fight away unwanted thots

but todae being silent todae..seemed alittle to disturbin...
coz steven and my guy actually asked me bout it...

i noe it aint anyone's fault but mine to think too much...
hey ..what can i do??? i cant contrl what i wana feel!!! as if it is a remote ??? madness

when i saw him at the conveyor belt collecting his baggage...
i cant help but to smile...
the feeling to rushing pass those glasses ... and hug him and never ever let go...

but at that instant... another thot...
" when will he fly again??"

it just hit me lidat...
it was a mixed feeling!!

that is what i was thinking that made me so quiet...
i am sad....but i cant tell...
coz there is nothin that can b done....
there is no solution...so why bother...

so ...i rather process it in my head ... and ans all queries..myself...

tears rolled uncontrollably...that is nothing i can do about it...
staring into the horizon, waiting for the seconds to go by and the moment to draw closer...
what can i do???
hmmm

nothing....

i am feeling like shite .... shite shite shite....
but.....
what ???!!!!
i feel like screaming....
i cant tear anymore,...
coz it is dry....

i....

here i am ..... typing and there i got a msg from jon...
he is saying that i betrayed his friendship
he thot that i treat him as a best friend...and now i said he is not!!
coz i tol him that i do no have any best friends.. coz i was hurt by those whom i ack were my best friends far too many times... till i lost trust in all...
i confide in blogs... in dairy....
he said i am a liar ...
he totally .... is pissed... he is angry!!

what have i done???what????!!!!

guilty i am here....
sadness is in me...
helpless i am....
i am feeling shite....
i wana scream!!!
i wana cry~~~
i wana box!!!!
i wana hammer!!!

i wana...

i wana...

fly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
down.......
way way down....
perish.... in the center of the earth...n not let anyone find me....
no one....
no one.......

URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

all smiles

2005-09-12T12:17:00.000-07:00

it is goin to rain !!!
crap!!!
o yes... woke up at ...10...to study hahaha ...well i am still a student after all...

guess my guy is still in lala land...he better not b in the gym....so early...
he looks tired.... late nite last nite...must b...shant call him...else i will wake him up!!! too early for him...
jet lag.... poor thing....

anyway.....
here is something that most girls will melt after seeing it...hahahah
SINFUL stuffs!!!!!

hahahaha!!! yes yes ... these are the few stuffs that are occupying the most of my guy's luggage!! geeesh... how did he noe i am goin for the audition for the santa claus role this xmas??? geesh... an i think i need all these to pile on those KGS!!! hahah...no no ... should b ... HO HO HO!!!!

BUT still... love it ~~~ yum!!!!!!! yummy yum!!!!! love it all!!! love him to bits too!!!!! hahahah as long as he is back!! i am one happy lady!!!! =)

well.... the same me when he is back!! ahha that smiley smiley me!! =)

simply the bestest thing that happen to me....

=) the Smiley Me..

2005-09-11T00:43:00.000-07:00

i am one happy girl todae... the happiest!!! after so long...after 6 weeks i must say....
heh....no prizes for guessing why!!!

=)
=)
=)
=)

i am all smiles todae...
everything is over... all my sadness...all my frustrations... all my sorrows....
all gone in a matter of seconds...

HEE HAAA !!! HIYA~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2005-09-09T10:46:00.000-07:00

It was a superb dae at gym yesterdae...WWWWEEEEEE.... it has been long since i last enjoyed combat hahah...okok it was only last sat since i last enjoyed (christ's class)... but last nite was fun!!!

well went to suhaimi's class...well ok la...it was fun too!! all the screamings...but...the HIGH-NESS aint there... it is just pure noisiness...coz there is joey and demas...hmmm it was alrite...
then balance...nothing much...the same thing... and storm...tsk tsk... it is a killer...WH killed us all at the last track ...a 4mins odd tracking, stepping on the stuff... yuck....

Pump...hmmmm well it is ok.... challenge myself alittle... but i nv finish up the entire pump session... o yes... saw eric todae... he told me that todae he very sian...along...co Roy is sick and Amos aint here...aiyo....hope that roy is feeling better...
o yes yes... i saw Winston..tsk tsk... t has been SOOOO long since i last saw him...he is still the same... the lean him.... hahah but still can afford to go for a tan thou!!!
hhah

then after that William's combat... hmmm it was the BEST of what i had last nite... it was super... me eva and kelvin aka ah boy.... WOOOW...we screamed like nobody'z biz... eva lost her voice after that hahaha
as for me and kel... we enjoyed ourselves tremendously!!!! WEEEEWW!!! ahhahah we ROCK the house!! or rather EVERYONE did!! it was a HIGH night!! straigt in track 2...
unlike Rino's...hmph...yew.....

hmmm everyone is waiting for he new releases...
Mon - Body Balance
Wed - Pump
Fri - Combat

Y are they so interested??? hmmmm they wil b doing the same thing over and over again for the next 2 weeks eh!! hahaha wassup man!!!!
o yes.... i must say ...the new combat... eh ... very interestin!!! try it out guys! ahhahah
better than the previous release!! i personally think... hohoho

o yes....i forgot....ellyas wanted to try out the gym mahines at cali...so i brought him and his friend, johnson, in as guest... they seriously like that place alot hahhah....
but it has been ....2 years?? yea...o ok 1 year odd to 2 years since i last saw ellyas... when i saw him........ oooooooooo it just broght back memory!!! hahaha

he is still the same guy i knew way back on NP....that machine mouth that cant close... sigh.... mass com ppl will aways b mass com...tsk tsk....
o yes... then he and johnson worked those huge machines at the 3rd level hahah
for me...i was at combat...asked them to join me...they say they are shy...wil try that out much later.... ahhha o yes they have 2 weeks of guest passes...so it means... they NO MATTER what will need to go combat with me!! HMPH.... dun care!!! muahahhhah
it is all fun!!!

n yea ...i forgot... he need to tone up also what... else how to maintain the bod for those adverts sia....
he made us all proud sia... he is mister model eh!! o yes ... he was use for photo shoots foe levi's ad....

(left) and (right):
yes yes... that is our man there.... coool eh.....
he loooks ...so COLD in the ad...as if he can kil with those eyes!!
Brrrrrrrrr...........

o well...todae...fri....
need to skip class todae...wonder if it is really worth it... it is accounts lect... i need that lect so much!! else i sure die...
so what i can do now is pray that the topics he is goin to cover is light and ez to understand... and as for assignment....hmmmm.... we will see how things goes....
it is due...16th eh!!! crap...still have a while more....

SOS!!!!Guess what...my darling is coming back home soon... but yet i have nothing installed for him... i am too bz with sch...gym...assignments and projects.... die die die...what to do???? what to buy???? how??? i am so panicky!!! gosh... this is bad!!! it is like .... i have bout ....36hrs.... HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*pray*
i hope i can do i hope i can do i hope i can do i hope i can do i hope i can do i hope i can do i hope i can do i hope i can do i hope i can do i hope i can do i hope i can do i hope i can do i hope i can do i hope i can do i hope i can do i hope i can do i hope i can do i hope i can do i hope i can do i hope i can do